I’m having buyers remorse I guess? About wanting a divorce. About getting what I hope I want out of something that is going to suck pretty hard for at least a year, if you start counting from now, which I am. So I’m just trying to remind myself that I don’t have to settle for feeling unhappy and lonely in my marriage, or constantly watchful/under threat in this state.
We’re going to the attorney tomorrow to start filing paperwork for a no-fault divorce with spousal support. I think my hind brain may be having part of its shit-fit over whether I “deserve” that, and if not, how do I make that happen. And I need to keep telling myself that Ghost volunteered. It was his idea, even. I was a good enough spouse for him, even if I am ending things now. It’s okay. It’s okay. It’s going to be okay.
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