hanging my tomorrows on the bones of yesterday

So for Christmas, Stepdad gave me a head cold, which I might be over by tomorrow or Friday if I’m lucky? I’m upset that he didn’t tell me he was sick until after I spent the 45 minute ride home from the airport in a car with his sniffly self. I could have kept my mask on, but it didn’t occur to him that risking my health was … let’s just say rude. Also he doesn’t cover his mouth when he coughs and sneezes apparently? So gross. I have been hiding in my room most of the time between my Pacific Northwest trip and now, even after he got me sick 🤒 🤧 😾

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A primer on metacognitions / ways of thinking that prop up white supremacy culture

Existential Processing Delay

Black Neurodiversity, - "Explore the intersection of neurodiversity and disability justice. Understand how factors like race, age, and gender influence neurodivergent experiences. Join our interactive 2-hour workshop and receive materials for immersive learning."

Neurocomplex Lifespan Model: "Gifted Kid to Autistic and/or ADHDer Adult (in Burnout)
A complex visual model of the path from “Gifted Kid” to late(r) in life identified Autistic and/or ADHDer. Considering school, work, relationships, gender, sexuality, mental & physical health."

Moral Scrupulosity OCD - "I followed every rule. I apologized when no one asked me to. I replayed conversations endlessly, scanning them for harm I might have caused. If I could just make sure I never hurt anyone, then everything would be okay."



Next up, a visual comic link

“Mapping Your Emotional Floor Plan:
A comic by Erika Moen based on Come Together
Even an amazing cartoonist known for communicating sex ed and talking about her own life found mapping her Emotional Floor Plan challenging – maybe this will help you do yours!”

Stoat.chat - a possible chat program to move to if Discord starts sharing data with police/ICE now that their TOS doesn't explicitly forbid it.

Oncology Massage - link for me to read soon.

GLP drugs might have neuroprotective effects? GDI now I have to do a bunch of research, with finals coming up. - Glucagon-like peptide-1 (GLP-1) receptor agonists and neuroinflammation: implications for neurodegenerative disease treatment

Endocrine-Disrupting Effects of Salicylate Preservatives on Neurosteroidogenesis: Targeting 5α-Reductase Type 1 I have dry skin AND work with my hands in lotion all day, so this link is more relevant to me than to most. But salicylate preservatives are in a lot of stuff we put on and in our bodies, and they can apparently be endocrine disruptors.

Lakota Made Products - Tezi Tea - for Mom, possibly? As she gets older, her digestion is not always as regular as it could be.

I’m trying to come slowly out of the sad/guilty/self-isolating headspace and towards something more neutral, which requires a certain degree of experience and comfort with the things I am trying to listen to or think about. But I am still on the ADHD-adjacent end of the autism spectrum, so I still need some novelty with that familiarity. I’m trying to find covers of songs I love transposed into other genres, languages, and made strange so therefore more appealing to the part of me that craves that difference.

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I did okay on midterms (I think), bombed a paper that I had not known was due bc it was in the syllabus in the wrong place (…), and got three different vaccines - because I both needed them and wanted to try a piece of internet advice about the covid booster for folks with dysautonomia and possible MCAS.

I took a cetirizine, a Zantac, and a Dramamine an hour before getting the covid booster, another antihistamine at bedtime, and one in the morning the next day. Effect: the day after the shots I was a little tired but not more than a normal day for me, my neck was a bit stiff but not to the point of having a headache, and my arm was sore but could be touched easily and worn long sleeves on. The day after that? I was _completely fine_. So if you have reason to suspect that the covid booster is worse for you than it is for others, feel free to treat yourself like you’re allergic to it.

In other news, my inner teenaged!Heidi is chuffed because guess who has two thumbs and their first gray hair? Yeah, this fully-grown-up adult! I made it, y’all! I made it to damn near 45 and haven’t even wound up in a mental hospital yet! Woot woot!

Plants are happy, most of my people are doing as well as they can be, all political things considered. I, uh. I have been stressed out and not on here much, so if you had a big thing happen and I didn’t comment on the post I probably missed it, and feel free to drop me a link to it in my DMs or whatnot.

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In other news: links! The big good news first:

https://neurosciencenews.com/vagus-nerve-stimulation-ptsd-28818/

Summary: A pioneering clinical study found that pairing vagus nerve stimulation (VNS) with traditional therapy eliminated PTSD diagnoses in all participants up to six months post-treatment. The trial combined prolonged exposure therapy with brief bursts of VNS via an implanted device, enhancing neuroplasticity and sustaining remission.

This is going to take a while to get replicated but should move faster than studying the MDMA method of doing basically the same stuff.

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For my Gifted / Intellectual / Creative Black folks, a community: https://www.ourwildminds.com/about from their About page

Why Black Gifted Adults Specifically?

Being a gifted or twice-exceptional member of one or more of these groups can be inherently challenging as it flies in the face of expectations placed on many of these social groups. To exhibit intellectual giftedness as a Black woman, for example, is to elicit confusion, derision, disbelief, amusement, suspicion, pathologization, and even rapt fascination — all of them dehumanizing and disorienting.

I learned of this community from this talk on giftedness here, via the AuDHD Flourishing podcast.

https://www.pocket-lint.com/amazon-kindle-download-feature/ - If you need to use a USB to move stuff on or off your Kindle, do it in the next few days? They are enshittifying the service and dropping that feature.

https://cbsky.app/profile/swizzard.pizza/post/3littag5dl22i - if you need a weird crossover that might make you giggle.

https://www.tumblr.com/toothsalad/775242139675377664/free-bulk-covid-tests please order 300 Covid tests and give them out to poor folks? The US stockpile is getting kinda … possibly shitcanned? But reports vary on whether the regime is caving to public pressure.

https://www.theroot.com/a-list-of-companies-that-continue-to-support-dei-1851755249 Unlike the parent company for the cowards who own Humble Bundle, some places have realized that Diversity Equity and Inclusion are strengths and not dangerous vulnerabilities the way bigots like to listen to their feelings about.

Let’s all give up on the practical world and install hidden book case doors? On second thought, these are like $1k, nevermind.

Hatshepsut’s brother’s tomb was found!

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It has been a minute since I’ve posted some links. Let’s do that. All of these links mention political fuckery that is ongoing, so if the context of what you can do about these political coercions doesn’t make it stress-neutral for your mental health, then maybe skip those links.

Weekly small tasks to prevent book censorship.

Open source alternatives to a lot of softwares and platforms, in case you’re thinking of switching off the folks who are scraping your data to feed to AI and sell to anyone who’ll pay for it.

How to freeze your credit score in case a historically massive amount of US financial data is stolen by people who have no security clearance. Just, for instance.

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And finally: - I put the “omen” in “women” - cross stitch pattern. This made me giggle, so it gets shared, too.

Snowflake Challenge #4

Since this is the start of a new year, this challenge will be e to set your own goals! Of course we can all make large or ambitious goals, remember that small and/or short goals are also good!

My resolution this year is that I’m going to play more. The goal is to do or say one goofy or silly or flirty or ridiculous thing every day. Play is good for the brain and helps our nervous system experience safety.

If I make a hexi-puff every day as well, that would be cool and go a long way towards making a blanket that I want to make for the Washington house. Link that doesn’t want to hyperlink: https://www.ravelry.com/patterns/library/the-beekeepers-quilt

https://bsky.app/profile/rahaeli.bsky.social/post/3labvxce57a2r

Rahaeli/ synecdochic has an 11-point bluesky thread that you should read. Even if you’re a straight white Christian male, you should know what is coming for your friends and allies and how to help guard against it.

“Right. Here's your to-do list for the next two months to put you in the best possible position to survive what's coming:

1. Renew your passport (or apply for a passport) this week even if it is not expiring in the next four years. Renewing early will give you the maximum 10-year validity period.”

https://getpocket.com/explore/item/we-re-told-to-eat-a-rainbow-of-fruit-and-vegetables-here-s-what-each-colour-does-in-our-body - “Eat The Rainbow” as dietary advice is helpful, but what does it mean for your health?

https://www.theverge.com/2024/10/15/24271148/fcc-data-cap-impact-consumers-inquiry - the FCC is still taking comments from the public on data caps and how they affect people’s internet usage.

https://www.quantamagazine.org/even-a-single-bacterial-cell-can-sense-the-seasons-changing-20241011/ - it’s not even cold yet and my joints are complaining because Winter Is Coming (🐺). They know.

https://www.quantamagazine.org/the-hidden-world-of-electrostatic-ecology-20240930/ - Bees and insects have a whole sense that we’ve never imagined.

https://health.clevelandclinic.org/hand-exercises-for-arthritis - Hand and wrist exercises to ease arthritis pain and stiffness. I’m starting to need these.

https://youtu.be/vXTGARuNqNQ?si=kPmTip22_NkYbQZs - Studio Ghibli lofi on YouTube

Oh! Also tomorrow is International Hang A Nazi Day! Do your part for history, folks!

https://youtu.be/gaOwKqIptRw?si=e4vMcaMv0qDIFc4v - Jammidodger on YouTube spreading some positive trans vibes