hanging my tomorrows on the bones of yesterday

Music: Lofi Girl x The Sims - Cozy Music to Feel Ooh Be Gah on Bandcamp.

Art: Accexhibition - accessible art, and the art of accessibility.

Mental Health: Emotional Neglect: Healing From The Hidden Trauma Of What Didn't Happen - Heidi Priebe on Youtube - for those of us who worked through our trauma but still feel like something is not right in our psyche, or who never had traumatic things happen but are still a pile of neurotic behaviours.

Mental Health: Atsede Scarseth AuDHD Therapist - POV: feeling better makes you feel guilty about your privilege on TikTok.

Health: Cognitive shuffling: The micro-dreaming game that helps you sleep, because I know some of y'all have trouble falling asleep, and it's time to give that busy-mind something to do that is not ruminate on every mistake you ever made. Sleep better, y'all.

Health: DASH heart-health diet adherents have a 40% lower incidence of cognitive decline. (!!that's amazing!!)

Health: Officials ‘missed 99% of data’ before ending Covid vaccine recommendation, memos reveal. US based Covid vaccine guidance for children and pregnant people on ideology instead of evidence, critics say.

Disability Justice: Access Intimacy, Interdependence and Disability Justice

Access intimacy is that elusive, hard to describe feeling when someone else “gets” your access needs. The kind of eerie comfort that your disabled self feels with someone on a purely access level. Sometimes it can happen with complete strangers, disabled or not, or sometimes it can be built over years. It could also be the way your body relaxes and opens up with someone when all your access needs are being met. It is not dependent on someone having a political understanding of disability, ableism or access.

Neurodivergence: Neurodivergent Insights Glossary of ND mental health terms and neurodivergent meditation styles for folks for whom "clear your mind" is a failure from the word go. *raises own hand*

Political comic: The Gospel of Supply Side Jesus

Political activism: Stand Up For Science: Protect NSF from Political Appointees - "Complete this form to send a message to your senators urging them to oppose Jim O’Neill’s confirmation as NSF Director."

Political Activism: Open comment period - Ethylene Oxide (breast cancer causative agent) to be ruled not an air pollutant, please tell the government what you think of this proposed rule.

Challenge #14

In your own space, create a promo and/or rec list for someone new to a fandom. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it and include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

I think I did a Star Wars one a while back, so now maybe it is time for #Batfamily Crack to get its own post.

In first place we have Jason Todd POV crack for GRATE JUSTICE: The Right Substitution is Key by AddictedApple

“The Red Hood has been good for Gotham,” Robin continued. “Crime in Park Row decreased by sixty one percent almost as soon as you showed up, and that’s even taking into account all the crime you commit. Drug overdoses have decreased by twenty two percent in adults and seventy nine percent in minors. Homeless minors are ninety two percent less likely to—”

“Kid,” Jason interrupted. “Enough statistics. What the hell is this about?”

Robin slowly lowered the tablet with his powerpoint presentation and looked up at Red Hood.

“You care about Gotham,” Robin summarised. “Gotham needs Batman. Batman is missing and so is Nightwing. We need you to fill in for Batman.”

“You want me to cover Batman’s patrols?” Jason clarified.

“No,” Robin said. “I want you to be Batman.”

Jason bluescreened.


(Or: Batman and Nightwing mysteriously disappear before Red Hood has even started antagonising them, Robin is desperate, Gotham needs Batman, and Red Hood is Batman-Shaped.)

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Second and third place are a tie by the same author: Are My Riddles a Joke to You?
& Gotham Knockoff by Raven_of_Hydecastle. Both are more Tim-Drake-Robin centric, feral little shit that he is, and will make you smile 'til your face hurts.

There is not nearly enough Signal fic out there, but The Robin Declaration by waterunderthebridge12 is the best I've read for getting his characterization right while still being funny.

Is now the time to say that I am not really into Dick Grayson's headspace, and most of the Batfam stuff that is from his POV is not really that funny? Moving right along!

Steph! For Stephanie Brown, my beloved flower who hits like a truck, precious goblin mode girl: Sophomores by LakeAwen. Steph&Jason family bonding! Found family and crack: two great tastes that taste great together!

[I will update with Cass-POV crackfic if there ever is any.]

( 19 Anti-ICE protest links )
Tumblr user daysanddangerousbits:

If you're in Maine or Philly or wherever the fuck Vance claimed DHS is going next, I BEG you to look at the rapid response and mutual aid networks and how they've been built in Portland, Chicago, and the Twin Cities, and start building your own version NOW.

Download signal if you haven't already. Pick a resistance pseudonym. Make a proton email that has no indicators to your real name. Start buying and printing whistles and whistle zines.

Organize your school patrols and foot patrols NOW. Talk to your community and your mercados and your Hmong and Somali grocery stores, ask them what support they need. Get "ICE are not welcome here" signage for businesses and homes. Familiarize yourself with the difference between an administrative warrant and a judicial warrant.

Learn how to take down a SALUTE report. PRACTICE salute reports. Learn, memorize, and embody radio etiquette for rapid response work.

Pick your lane: rapid response or mutual aid-- you can't do both, because rapid response often puts you in direct contact with ICE. They've been taking down plate numbers and leading responders back to their own homes here in the Twin Cities.

Remember that being under siege is a marathon, not a race. ( Explicit talk of dehumanizing ICE tactics )

Tumblr user kawaiiabetic:

Hey, Angeleno here to add: look for or start mutual aid groups that buy out your vendors, jardineros, tradespeople, helping support the most vulnerable members of your community from making the choice to stay home and safe or provide for family. We’re still doing this here and it helps.

“ICE NOT WELCOME” signs are great for solidarity and breaking morale, but please make and help pass out signs stating a home or business is private property. Make sure your business has an area explicitly for employees only. What we’ve seen in the last week makes all this seem like sticking a post-it on a viper and none of us know where we’re headed now, but it’s easy to do and could make a difference. It’s made a difference here.

Stay safe and take care of each other 🫡

https://www.comrades.education/ - “Comrades Education provides educational programming, community building, and skill development in service of grassroots, working class, antiracist, and decolonial movements“
Including: https://www.comrades.education/before-we-were-white “
Before We Were White is a core piece of curriculum that Comrades Education (formerly known as White Awake) has offered annually for the past eight years. The program offers an ancestral recovery experience for people with European descent (whether you are white or multiracial) that is explicitly antiracist and decolonial.”

https://www.multiamory.com/podcast/181-kim-tallbear - Settler Sexuality w Dr Kim Tallbear on the Multiamory podcast [listen to next week]

https://playradical.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/05/play-shapes.pdf The Shapes of Autistic Play

https://projects.propublica.org/rx-inspector/ Prescription Inspector by Pro Publica


De-Goggling project:

https://ellipsus.com/
https://cryptpad.fr/
Protonmail
https://followersforever.net/

Challenge #4: Rec The Contents Of Your Last Page

Any website that you like, be it fanfiction, art, social media, or something a bit more eccentric!

Last Ravelry pattern I favorited: Tabi Socks by Kerstin Usher
Last fic I recced somebody: Recollect, re-collect by Ptelea (must be logged in to view) Jason Todd gets caught in a spell that erases him from other's memories, angst and healing ensue.
Last STEM thing I read: Dell admits consumers don’t care about AI PCs
Last comic I read: XKCD: Superstition
Last therapy thing I tried: Neurodivergent Insights' Holiday Mindful Self-Care (can't link to it, it's a protected-entry PDF)
Last song I listened to: THE DAY THE NAZI DIED - CHUMBAWAMBA on youtube
Last new-to-me artist I found: Camille Przewodek - Plein Air painting in the American Impressionism tradition

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Challenge #5
In your own space, create a list of at least three things you'd love to receive, a wishlist of sorts. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it and include a link to your wishlist if you feel comfortable doing so.

I did the full 10 things Elf Meme over here, but the parts that I need most desperately that have not gotten much movement are:
1. I could use some books to help me think differently about other peoples headspaces. If there’s a book that explained a different type of person to you, I’d like to hear about it. Possibly also to borrow the book? I will, of course, send you a book of my own as collateral. Fair's fair.

4. I want to start getting rid of some of the Japanese EGL fashion dresses that I have, most of them are an Asian XL or XXL in size. I need an accountability buddy for listing them on LaceMarket or someone to give them to who will love them and take them out of my closet. If you can help with either thing, give me a DM. If you want me to lay out a sheet and post floordrobe pictures of outfits, I can do that, too, if you think it will help entice you or someone you know into the fashion.
[edit Jan 21st: Navy striped Miho Matsuda blouse size L, 98cm bust, 80 cm waist, 27 cm bicep
Dark navy Taobao blouse, size XL
Linen and pink two-toned wig]


7. I really need someone to talk to about doing Shadow work who knows their own emotional safety limits, prefereably someone who has been through some therapy or done a lot of therapy-adjacent self-help. I don’t know how to talk about the wack shit that happened to us when we were kids that made us think we were better off cutting off whole parts of ourselves, while also having to deal with looking for someone else’s distress and bc I will feel like I need to manage their feelings. The task switching is way harder for me in that state (autism!), and I want people to be safe, but I also need to stay on task with an accountability buddy or something. Idk. Something along those lines? We can negotiate!

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New Years Book Meme Via nanila:

1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Turn to page 126
3. The 6th full sentence is your life in 2026

"There were guidelines to follow about food, but instead of a list of foods she could and couldn't eat, she was told to pay attention to how various foods felt in her body."

- Burnout: the secret to unlocking the stress cycle
by Emily Nagoski, PhD, and Amelia Nagoski, DMA.

So for Christmas, Stepdad gave me a head cold, which I might be over by tomorrow or Friday if I’m lucky? I’m upset that he didn’t tell me he was sick until after I spent the 45 minute ride home from the airport in a car with his sniffly self. I could have kept my mask on, but it didn’t occur to him that risking my health was … let’s just say rude. Also he doesn’t cover his mouth when he coughs and sneezes apparently? So gross. I have been hiding in my room most of the time between my Pacific Northwest trip and now, even after he got me sick 🤒 🤧 😾

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A primer on metacognitions / ways of thinking that prop up white supremacy culture

Existential Processing Delay

Black Neurodiversity, - "Explore the intersection of neurodiversity and disability justice. Understand how factors like race, age, and gender influence neurodivergent experiences. Join our interactive 2-hour workshop and receive materials for immersive learning."

Neurocomplex Lifespan Model: "Gifted Kid to Autistic and/or ADHDer Adult (in Burnout)
A complex visual model of the path from “Gifted Kid” to late(r) in life identified Autistic and/or ADHDer. Considering school, work, relationships, gender, sexuality, mental & physical health."

Moral Scrupulosity OCD - "I followed every rule. I apologized when no one asked me to. I replayed conversations endlessly, scanning them for harm I might have caused. If I could just make sure I never hurt anyone, then everything would be okay."



Next up, a visual comic link

“Mapping Your Emotional Floor Plan:
A comic by Erika Moen based on Come Together
Even an amazing cartoonist known for communicating sex ed and talking about her own life found mapping her Emotional Floor Plan challenging – maybe this will help you do yours!”

Stoat.chat - a possible chat program to move to if Discord starts sharing data with police/ICE now that their TOS doesn't explicitly forbid it.

Oncology Massage - link for me to read soon.

GLP drugs might have neuroprotective effects? GDI now I have to do a bunch of research, with finals coming up. - Glucagon-like peptide-1 (GLP-1) receptor agonists and neuroinflammation: implications for neurodegenerative disease treatment

Endocrine-Disrupting Effects of Salicylate Preservatives on Neurosteroidogenesis: Targeting 5α-Reductase Type 1 I have dry skin AND work with my hands in lotion all day, so this link is more relevant to me than to most. But salicylate preservatives are in a lot of stuff we put on and in our bodies, and they can apparently be endocrine disruptors.

Lakota Made Products - Tezi Tea - for Mom, possibly? As she gets older, her digestion is not always as regular as it could be.

I’m trying to come slowly out of the sad/guilty/self-isolating headspace and towards something more neutral, which requires a certain degree of experience and comfort with the things I am trying to listen to or think about. But I am still on the ADHD-adjacent end of the autism spectrum, so I still need some novelty with that familiarity. I’m trying to find covers of songs I love transposed into other genres, languages, and made strange so therefore more appealing to the part of me that craves that difference.

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I did okay on midterms (I think), bombed a paper that I had not known was due bc it was in the syllabus in the wrong place (…), and got three different vaccines - because I both needed them and wanted to try a piece of internet advice about the covid booster for folks with dysautonomia and possible MCAS.

I took a cetirizine, a Zantac, and a Dramamine an hour before getting the covid booster, another antihistamine at bedtime, and one in the morning the next day. Effect: the day after the shots I was a little tired but not more than a normal day for me, my neck was a bit stiff but not to the point of having a headache, and my arm was sore but could be touched easily and worn long sleeves on. The day after that? I was _completely fine_. So if you have reason to suspect that the covid booster is worse for you than it is for others, feel free to treat yourself like you’re allergic to it.

In other news, my inner teenaged!Heidi is chuffed because guess who has two thumbs and their first gray hair? Yeah, this fully-grown-up adult! I made it, y’all! I made it to damn near 45 and haven’t even wound up in a mental hospital yet! Woot woot!

Plants are happy, most of my people are doing as well as they can be, all political things considered. I, uh. I have been stressed out and not on here much, so if you had a big thing happen and I didn’t comment on the post I probably missed it, and feel free to drop me a link to it in my DMs or whatnot.

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In other news: links! The big good news first:

https://neurosciencenews.com/vagus-nerve-stimulation-ptsd-28818/

Summary: A pioneering clinical study found that pairing vagus nerve stimulation (VNS) with traditional therapy eliminated PTSD diagnoses in all participants up to six months post-treatment. The trial combined prolonged exposure therapy with brief bursts of VNS via an implanted device, enhancing neuroplasticity and sustaining remission.

This is going to take a while to get replicated but should move faster than studying the MDMA method of doing basically the same stuff.

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For my Gifted / Intellectual / Creative Black folks, a community: https://www.ourwildminds.com/about from their About page

Why Black Gifted Adults Specifically?

Being a gifted or twice-exceptional member of one or more of these groups can be inherently challenging as it flies in the face of expectations placed on many of these social groups. To exhibit intellectual giftedness as a Black woman, for example, is to elicit confusion, derision, disbelief, amusement, suspicion, pathologization, and even rapt fascination — all of them dehumanizing and disorienting.

I learned of this community from this talk on giftedness here, via the AuDHD Flourishing podcast.

https://www.pocket-lint.com/amazon-kindle-download-feature/ - If you need to use a USB to move stuff on or off your Kindle, do it in the next few days? They are enshittifying the service and dropping that feature.

https://cbsky.app/profile/swizzard.pizza/post/3littag5dl22i - if you need a weird crossover that might make you giggle.

https://www.tumblr.com/toothsalad/775242139675377664/free-bulk-covid-tests please order 300 Covid tests and give them out to poor folks? The US stockpile is getting kinda … possibly shitcanned? But reports vary on whether the regime is caving to public pressure.

https://www.theroot.com/a-list-of-companies-that-continue-to-support-dei-1851755249 Unlike the parent company for the cowards who own Humble Bundle, some places have realized that Diversity Equity and Inclusion are strengths and not dangerous vulnerabilities the way bigots like to listen to their feelings about.

Let’s all give up on the practical world and install hidden book case doors? On second thought, these are like $1k, nevermind.

Hatshepsut’s brother’s tomb was found!

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