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Things I like to talk about: stuff that I’m curious about or that is counterintuitive, therapy stuff including some ongoing parts/Shadow/reclaiming work, earworms, kvetching about stuff I'm reading (or, rarely, writing), and occasionally raving about fic recs and links. Sometimes I write out my thoughts-naming meditation or something about my weird brand of secular paganism, but those are pretty rare at the moment.
Comments are welcome here, and I will try to reply unless you are probably trolling. As long as you apologize when you hurt someone then we're cool. If all you want to say is a heart/emoji, that's cool, too! If you need cuts with trigger warnings? Please let me know … unless you want me to trigger warn for parts of my identity like the word “queer”. Just. No. I like having company over and want you to feel safe here, but I have to feel safe here, too.
As someone whose body does not always work like it says on the label, I’m no longer putting processing/whining/complaining about that behind a cut. I saw a tumblr post a while back that said one reason abled people are so bad at interacting with disabled people is because we’re kept to the margins as much as possible. That folks don’t have to interact with us with the "I'm fine" mask off very often, so they don’t get enough practice to be good at it - and that is to everyone’s detriment. tumblr OP had a point!
Fandom stuff: I don’t write on AO3 much anymore, but! I'm currently into DC Batfamily crack, and I bookmark some fun and spicy things! A couple years ago Star Wars ate my brain, but I seem to be doing fine in its absence, so who needs brains, really? The fandoms I'm mostly not in anymore where you may have seen my comments include: The MCU, Leverage, The Witcher, The Good Place, Daredevil, Star Trek: AOS, Smallville, X-Men, Stargates SG1 and Atlantis, Teen Wolf, The Losers, and random comments on your musicals and 80's movies fics. (I will sadly no longer be reading Harry Potter or Good Omens fics, for terrible-people-can-suck-a-lemon reasons.)
If someone on DreamWidth OR AO3 is harassing you or doing you a microaggression, drop me a DM? As a white anti-racist ally, an antifascist, and a person who believes in the power of weaponized empathy, I need more practice having uncomfortable conversations with people who need to be gently informed what consequences their actions may be having for themselves and the people they are (hopefully unwittingly) hurting. Or! I can talk smack about the people upsetting you and write insulting haiku about them until you feel validated and can process the bad-feels. Whatever you need, I'm gonna try to be there for that. I take the bonds of community seriously.
FANWORKS POLICY: I do not give permission for my words or works to be fed into an LLM or AI training of any kind. Other than that caveat, if you want to podfic, remix, translate, make fanart, or in any way transform any of my fan works, you go right ahead! Link me!
I do SPAG and basic beta reading for fic under 10k in any of the above-approved fandoms, too. Just PM me.
Have I mentioned that bodies are gross and inconvenient lately? Because they are. Ouch. 😣
Today is another day closer to getting my license, which I’m starting to get anxious about, frankly. C’mon Washington, gimme my license. I want to work! But no, I get to wait longer for it.
At least at this rate, the house will be ready for winter when it gets here? I want the yard to move garden-wards over the next few years, so I’m laying foundations for that now, planning, and researching, and pulling weeds. Observing the flow of sunlight and water across the angles of the land is kind of step zero in a process like this, and knowing where subsurface structures like the septic tank outflows are is helpful and economical to plan for as well.
[ ] Mulch? How much 3”* 6’ sq = ?
[ ] “Organic”+“slow release” fertilizers - research for salad greens, Berry bushes
[ ] Pull out Rose of Sharon, plant wildflowers and native species
[ ] combine grass mulch 2” under wood mulch 2” for decomposing heat to protect plant roots in winter
[ ] buy in-ground worm mulch bucket
? - plant a rose where we’re killing off the invasive English ivy on the front fence?
? - prepare / till soil on level part of backyard for planting next season?
https://0101.bandcamp.com/album/kemono-teatime-original-soundtrack-extended today’s jam is cute video game music
https://handmadepalestine.com/ A way to get unique handcrafts that support good causes.
Evie Unraveling YouTube https://youtu.be/RryDZjkLao8 | Fighting Fa$cism with Stitches and Pasta
Today is another day closer to getting my license, which I’m starting to get anxious about, frankly. C’mon Washington, gimme my license. I want to work! But no, I get to wait longer for it.
At least at this rate, the house will be ready for winter when it gets here? I want the yard to move garden-wards over the next few years, so I’m laying foundations for that now, planning, and researching, and pulling weeds. Observing the flow of sunlight and water across the angles of the land is kind of step zero in a process like this, and knowing where subsurface structures like the septic tank outflows are is helpful and economical to plan for as well.
[ ] Mulch? How much 3”* 6’ sq = ?
[ ] “Organic”+“slow release” fertilizers - research for salad greens, Berry bushes
[ ] Pull out Rose of Sharon, plant wildflowers and native species
[ ] combine grass mulch 2” under wood mulch 2” for decomposing heat to protect plant roots in winter
[ ] buy in-ground worm mulch bucket
? - plant a rose where we’re killing off the invasive English ivy on the front fence?
? - prepare / till soil on level part of backyard for planting next season?
https://0101.bandcamp.com/album/kemono-teatime-original-soundtrack-extended today’s jam is cute video game music
https://handmadepalestine.com/ A way to get unique handcrafts that support good causes.
Evie Unraveling YouTube https://youtu.be/RryDZjkLao8 | Fighting Fa$cism with Stitches and Pasta
THE AROMANTIC AGENDA or: romantic attraction is FAKE: a presentation | Dorian Gay / Dorian.crafts on YouTube
- this is an extremely tongue-in-cheek look at socially constructed romance and attraction from the aromantic perspective. Informative and occasionally hilarious, as well as highly relatable (to me anyway, and dear tiny gods do I not need another identity right now).
10 Things Japanese Homes Never Have — That Make American Homes Exhausting | Two Houses by Ken Tsukamoto on YouTube - Such a good breakdown of cultures and lived experiences as a response to unique social pressures and physical challenges!
https://leavesubstack.com/ So I knew that substack had a rightwing gun nut problem, I did not know they were platforming and paying actual Nazis. So now I’m cancelling my newsletter subscription for Letters From An American, professor Heather Cox Richardson’s substack, that I literally just recommended to two people who like history and politics and the confluence thereof.
So what are your newsletters on other platforms that don’t support genocidal bullshit? How do you keep up with the news in ways that don’t inspire anxiety?
- this is an extremely tongue-in-cheek look at socially constructed romance and attraction from the aromantic perspective. Informative and occasionally hilarious, as well as highly relatable (to me anyway, and dear tiny gods do I not need another identity right now).
10 Things Japanese Homes Never Have — That Make American Homes Exhausting | Two Houses by Ken Tsukamoto on YouTube - Such a good breakdown of cultures and lived experiences as a response to unique social pressures and physical challenges!
https://leavesubstack.com/ So I knew that substack had a rightwing gun nut problem, I did not know they were platforming and paying actual Nazis. So now I’m cancelling my newsletter subscription for Letters From An American, professor Heather Cox Richardson’s substack, that I literally just recommended to two people who like history and politics and the confluence thereof.
So what are your newsletters on other platforms that don’t support genocidal bullshit? How do you keep up with the news in ways that don’t inspire anxiety?
Vanquishing dastardly brambles
Sep. 2nd, 2026 11:17 pmThings I have accomplished today:
• bought native red clover seeds, so that every time I pull up a plant that doesn’t get to stay where it is (hogweed, baby western red cedar, poisonous hemlock) I will have seeds to plant there that I want in that spot
• battled back the blackberry canes and took ~5-10 lbs of it to the compost pile (take that, you thorny fuckers!)
• Listened to lofi
• tried to find a cool-toned teal eyeshadow that doesn’t have freaking asbestos in it, and I did eventually find one, and I should be able to turn it into a crème eyeshadow, the small gods willing
• bought the stuff I need to make more of my “Breakfast of Champions Chocolate Protein Slurry™️” which I make sound less than delicious so not everyone will want it. If you are looking for a recipe, tho, it’s pretty simple: 1 part acacia fiber, 1 part inulin powder (not a typo), 1 part cocoa powder, and 12 parts whey protein - preferably the kind with added vitamins and minerals. Putting about a tablespoon of heavy cream into a 12 fl oz serving can also cover a host of texture sins
• phone call with![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
otter, who is thinking of putting up solar panels on their house (give them a shoutout in the comment section if you are willing to be asked questions about such?)
• sewed some more hexipuffs onto the Beekeepers Chair Cover Of Great Awesomeness
• gotten prepared for the upcoming probably-horrible period by buying a bunch of chocolate and crunchy things
• bought bulbs to plant tomorrow to start establishing a bed of tulips and dandelions over by the front of the lawn
• tried to catch up on people’s journals … heh … that’s not going super well …
So that’s what I did today with all my spoons.
• bought native red clover seeds, so that every time I pull up a plant that doesn’t get to stay where it is (hogweed, baby western red cedar, poisonous hemlock) I will have seeds to plant there that I want in that spot
• battled back the blackberry canes and took ~5-10 lbs of it to the compost pile (take that, you thorny fuckers!)
• Listened to lofi
• tried to find a cool-toned teal eyeshadow that doesn’t have freaking asbestos in it, and I did eventually find one, and I should be able to turn it into a crème eyeshadow, the small gods willing
• bought the stuff I need to make more of my “Breakfast of Champions Chocolate Protein Slurry™️” which I make sound less than delicious so not everyone will want it. If you are looking for a recipe, tho, it’s pretty simple: 1 part acacia fiber, 1 part inulin powder (not a typo), 1 part cocoa powder, and 12 parts whey protein - preferably the kind with added vitamins and minerals. Putting about a tablespoon of heavy cream into a 12 fl oz serving can also cover a host of texture sins
• phone call with
otter, who is thinking of putting up solar panels on their house (give them a shoutout in the comment section if you are willing to be asked questions about such?)• sewed some more hexipuffs onto the Beekeepers Chair Cover Of Great Awesomeness
• gotten prepared for the upcoming probably-horrible period by buying a bunch of chocolate and crunchy things
• bought bulbs to plant tomorrow to start establishing a bed of tulips and dandelions over by the front of the lawn
• tried to catch up on people’s journals … heh … that’s not going super well …
So that’s what I did today with all my spoons.
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Aug. 26th, 2026 09:22 pmI started having a bursitis flare last night, so I have been stiff and in pain the last 24 hours, and had painsomnia about it half of last night. Thankfully those are getting better and should be back to normal levels by the time I wake up tomorrow.
I got very little done today, and also kinda this week. The friend of a friend is mostly moved now, we just have to start cleaning the apartment so that they don’t charge her some ridiculous amount for cleaning and repairs. It’s technically illegal in this state to do that, but … landlords are mostly the bloodthirsty type who can sniff out folks who are too financially desperate to be able to mount a legal defense. Which she is.
I need to catch up here on DW, which I’m about to try to do. I may need to unfollow a few RSS feed pages that I just kind of skim, bc I am getting overwhelmed again. Boo. Boo, I say! Thumbs down, do not want.
I got very little done today, and also kinda this week. The friend of a friend is mostly moved now, we just have to start cleaning the apartment so that they don’t charge her some ridiculous amount for cleaning and repairs. It’s technically illegal in this state to do that, but … landlords are mostly the bloodthirsty type who can sniff out folks who are too financially desperate to be able to mount a legal defense. Which she is.
I need to catch up here on DW, which I’m about to try to do. I may need to unfollow a few RSS feed pages that I just kind of skim, bc I am getting overwhelmed again. Boo. Boo, I say! Thumbs down, do not want.
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Aug. 17th, 2026 12:27 amIt is after midnight and we just got home from helping out a friend of a friend with an all hands on deck emergency packing for a move out date by the end of the month. There are wack family disability/ill health things going down, it’s all very fraught and sad and much better-handled in other countries. Either way, fuck this country, fuck illness and disabilities, and fuck the confluence of those circumstances.
I will talk to some of you tomorrow if possible.
I will talk to some of you tomorrow if possible.
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Aug. 11th, 2026 11:00 amYesterday I had cramps all morning and the early afternoon, but my period has now stopped overnight, and will probably pause for 2-3 days before starting again. Dysmenorrhea they call it, basically translating to “your body is bad at periods”. Also I keep having headaches this week, possible I need new glasses? Yay.
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In more fun news,
• I got to visit Merlin, which was very nice. 😊🥰😏
• My mood is still really good when my pain isn’t regularly hitting 5s and 6s, which is still better most of the time.
• I have started sewing together the Hexipuffs to make a big cushiony cover for the office chair at my desk. Let’s hope this goes well, I guess. Brightly colored pic of the start of this project can be found here.
• I’m making socks and slippers for folks for this year’s Yule, so I have enough time to knit things without having to work on large projects that might get boring. Also I’m learning slightly more complex architectural knitting in the form of the Linearity slippers.
• I am writing poems, sort of? But they will take a long time to get polished enough to post.
*hugs and pets and again-hugs again*
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In more fun news,
• I got to visit Merlin, which was very nice. 😊🥰😏
• My mood is still really good when my pain isn’t regularly hitting 5s and 6s, which is still better most of the time.
• I have started sewing together the Hexipuffs to make a big cushiony cover for the office chair at my desk. Let’s hope this goes well, I guess. Brightly colored pic of the start of this project can be found here.
• I’m making socks and slippers for folks for this year’s Yule, so I have enough time to knit things without having to work on large projects that might get boring. Also I’m learning slightly more complex architectural knitting in the form of the Linearity slippers.
• I am writing poems, sort of? But they will take a long time to get polished enough to post.
*hugs and pets and again-hugs again*
Enter flamingsword, hissing like a wet cat
Aug. 7th, 2026 09:14 pmI’ve been having intermittent dizzy spells, weird bodies-are-jerks symptoms, and some extra pain. I think I have an ear infection? Boo.
I spent all of my spoons today keeping a friend company on the phone trying to let her talk herself down from a panic attack, and three hours later her nerves still did not appear to be less agitated? Boo!
I sent my professional licensing paperwork off a couple weeks ago. Today I found out the state of Washington’s healthcare licensing department is *two months behind?* Boo! Hiss! Blargh!
I will be okay financially, but I *will* need to start working out every other day. At. Least. Because my muscles will start deconditioning soon if it has not already begun.
I spent all of my spoons today keeping a friend company on the phone trying to let her talk herself down from a panic attack, and three hours later her nerves still did not appear to be less agitated? Boo!
I sent my professional licensing paperwork off a couple weeks ago. Today I found out the state of Washington’s healthcare licensing department is *two months behind?* Boo! Hiss! Blargh!
I will be okay financially, but I *will* need to start working out every other day. At. Least. Because my muscles will start deconditioning soon if it has not already begun.
Future happiness
Jul. 26th, 2026 02:13 pmI think I have as good a handle on stopping my life from sucking as I am likely to get for now. I think it’s time to change course and start pursuing ways to be happier? I don’t work into the positive aspect very often, or work at making my life more joyful instead of less stressful, and maybe the next year of changes should be doing this. I started this kind of by accident by moving out here, and this should be a continuing condition.
Anybody got Thoughts on where to start? I sometimes miss real obvious stuff but my embarrassment is not a good enough reason to not point it out to me.
Anybody got Thoughts on where to start? I sometimes miss real obvious stuff but my embarrassment is not a good enough reason to not point it out to me.
A poem, and how I’m doing
Jul. 23rd, 2026 10:33 amWinter Plum Fairytale
By Teddywolf
Summary:
When Robert Frost
first wrote
about the plums
eaten by William Carlos Williams
in an icy wood
while trawling the Internet
I think I have more energy than I used to? Only by like 10-15%, but … that’s not nothing. I haven’t changed medication, I’m not much further into perimenopause than I was, the only vitamins that I’m taking now that I wasn’t before are the red yeast rice for my cholesterol and the turmeric-ginger blend for my joints. Those are not reported to have this effect.
I’m pretty sure I’m not imagining this, either. Maybe it’s just that I have “work” to do that is taking care of two of my favorite people? Or that I’m finally taking a long vacation and have let my stress unspool for a while? Is it being in Washington where I’m less allergic? Some combination of all these factors? I don’t even know, y’all. I’ll take it, but it’s freaking weird to wake up some mornings and feel ready to face the day and Do All The Things!
Today’s self-care-and-connection dice rolls are 2 and 92 so I’m going to look at paintings and things online, and emailnyyki about why I admire her and how valuable she is in my life.
I wish for us all bigger spoon drawers, and people worth taking care of.
By Teddywolf
Summary:
When Robert Frost
first wrote
about the plums
eaten by William Carlos Williams
in an icy wood
while trawling the Internet
I think I have more energy than I used to? Only by like 10-15%, but … that’s not nothing. I haven’t changed medication, I’m not much further into perimenopause than I was, the only vitamins that I’m taking now that I wasn’t before are the red yeast rice for my cholesterol and the turmeric-ginger blend for my joints. Those are not reported to have this effect.
I’m pretty sure I’m not imagining this, either. Maybe it’s just that I have “work” to do that is taking care of two of my favorite people? Or that I’m finally taking a long vacation and have let my stress unspool for a while? Is it being in Washington where I’m less allergic? Some combination of all these factors? I don’t even know, y’all. I’ll take it, but it’s freaking weird to wake up some mornings and feel ready to face the day and Do All The Things!
Today’s self-care-and-connection dice rolls are 2 and 92 so I’m going to look at paintings and things online, and email
nyyki about why I admire her and how valuable she is in my life. I wish for us all bigger spoon drawers, and people worth taking care of.
2026 Gender Survey - if you or someone you know aren’t always in only one box of the gender binary, there’s an anonymous survey you might like to take. 2025’s results are here, if you maybe just want to feel less alone.
https://eliseesther.bandcamp.com/album/prelude-to-ocean - harp and piano and some occasional bits of violin. Soothing acoustic ambient.
https://knitty.com/ISSUEff26/FEATff26WK/FEATff26WK.php Brioche knitting is apparently not the very devil if you’re working each row in 2 colors? Or at least according to people who know how to do it. I may need to practice this skill.
https://youarenotsosmart.com/2026/06/01/yanss-340-how-to-think-sideways-like-a-chess-player-so-you-can-make-better-choices-by-considering-fewer-options/
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=7H0FKzeuVVs - Yoga Nidra guided meditation
https://the10lenses.com/ common lenses through which race and culture may be viewed. I don't necessarily think these are very well put, but it is one set of ways to look at all the different ways people look at race and race relations.
In other news I have changed my journal colors to dark pine greens, teals, and minty aquas. It’s very restful for my eyes, which need to rest after we spent 4.5 hours outside today mowing the lawn some more. It is fire season so having foot-tall dry grass near the house just sounds like a bad plan.
https://eliseesther.bandcamp.com/album/prelude-to-ocean - harp and piano and some occasional bits of violin. Soothing acoustic ambient.
https://knitty.com/ISSUEff26/FEATff26WK/FEATff26WK.php Brioche knitting is apparently not the very devil if you’re working each row in 2 colors? Or at least according to people who know how to do it. I may need to practice this skill.
https://youarenotsosmart.com/2026/06/01/yanss-340-how-to-think-sideways-like-a-chess-player-so-you-can-make-better-choices-by-considering-fewer-options/
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=7H0FKzeuVVs - Yoga Nidra guided meditation
https://the10lenses.com/ common lenses through which race and culture may be viewed. I don't necessarily think these are very well put, but it is one set of ways to look at all the different ways people look at race and race relations.
In other news I have changed my journal colors to dark pine greens, teals, and minty aquas. It’s very restful for my eyes, which need to rest after we spent 4.5 hours outside today mowing the lawn some more. It is fire season so having foot-tall dry grass near the house just sounds like a bad plan.
Amphibious ways to be include several of my least favorite binary states,
twofold realms that we must feel both of - but always live like the baby cut in half and thrown out with Solomon's bath water.
You aren't the only one here who lives underwater.
I take deep breaths of meaning only to be resubmerged under the pointlessness of a world where coins are placed over our eyes when we can no longer use them,
as though the world can pay us enough to make unseeing fine by letting us keep our last two cents.
Is there a difference between willful blindness and unseeing, I wonder,
while sea-sawing between opposing reasons for the lack of insight.
I moved to a house by the sea but some part of my heart is still blind to both our faults.
When I say I'm in a state, I wonder, sometimes, which one I mean.
twofold realms that we must feel both of - but always live like the baby cut in half and thrown out with Solomon's bath water.
You aren't the only one here who lives underwater.
I take deep breaths of meaning only to be resubmerged under the pointlessness of a world where coins are placed over our eyes when we can no longer use them,
as though the world can pay us enough to make unseeing fine by letting us keep our last two cents.
Is there a difference between willful blindness and unseeing, I wonder,
while sea-sawing between opposing reasons for the lack of insight.
I moved to a house by the sea but some part of my heart is still blind to both our faults.
When I say I'm in a state, I wonder, sometimes, which one I mean.
Disability Math
Jul. 14th, 2026 10:34 pmThis is not prescriptive, it’s more the formula that works for me and how I learned to do the math of keeping track of my energy expenditure.
• I wake up with a certain number of spoons in my spoon drawer depending on how well I slept, whether I took my meds last night, whether my body or brain fought themselves all night. I will feel tired, but can still accomplish a fair number of things. Most of the time I have ~30 spoons for a whole day, when not in a fibro flare.
• I spend 1 spoon every hour on a good day, even at rest. I spend 1.5 spoons per hour if baseline pain is above a 3, and up to 3 spoons per hour at rest on a bad day for either painful fibromyalgia or autoimmune flares.
• different activities cost different amounts of spoons for most of us, so I estimate my spoons before major tasks (and write it down when I can) and then check back in with my body afterwards to see what it cost me to get that thing done.
• hunger, emotional states, stress, movement, lack of movement, and most kinds of activities all take their toll, so I eat, hydrate, deal with my feelings, and budget for my day to make sure I don’t have unpleasant surprises before I’m ready to give up on the day. If I plan resources incorrectly I can get blurred vision, emotional dysregulation, and sometimes meltdowns before the ends of my days.
• In the beginning, after talking it over with Bat, I checked in with my body’s needs every hour while I was unfamiliar with my personal disability math, and then re-budgeted after every check in until I had enough notes to figure out what costed what. I tried to regularly note down any reasons for a discrepancy. (Self talk on this sounded like, “Do not assume you will remember, especially on a bad or busy day, I’m so serious, Heidi, write it down!”)
• if I spend more spoons than I have available, then for every spoon I overspent, I am missing anywhere from .5 to 2.5 spoons the next day. Possibly multiple days if I just ignored my limits and pushed through like a silly person.
Fellow spoonies: what is different about your math? What did I forget or represent in ways you would explain differently?
• I wake up with a certain number of spoons in my spoon drawer depending on how well I slept, whether I took my meds last night, whether my body or brain fought themselves all night. I will feel tired, but can still accomplish a fair number of things. Most of the time I have ~30 spoons for a whole day, when not in a fibro flare.
• I spend 1 spoon every hour on a good day, even at rest. I spend 1.5 spoons per hour if baseline pain is above a 3, and up to 3 spoons per hour at rest on a bad day for either painful fibromyalgia or autoimmune flares.
• different activities cost different amounts of spoons for most of us, so I estimate my spoons before major tasks (and write it down when I can) and then check back in with my body afterwards to see what it cost me to get that thing done.
• hunger, emotional states, stress, movement, lack of movement, and most kinds of activities all take their toll, so I eat, hydrate, deal with my feelings, and budget for my day to make sure I don’t have unpleasant surprises before I’m ready to give up on the day. If I plan resources incorrectly I can get blurred vision, emotional dysregulation, and sometimes meltdowns before the ends of my days.
• In the beginning, after talking it over with Bat, I checked in with my body’s needs every hour while I was unfamiliar with my personal disability math, and then re-budgeted after every check in until I had enough notes to figure out what costed what. I tried to regularly note down any reasons for a discrepancy. (Self talk on this sounded like, “Do not assume you will remember, especially on a bad or busy day, I’m so serious, Heidi, write it down!”)
• if I spend more spoons than I have available, then for every spoon I overspent, I am missing anywhere from .5 to 2.5 spoons the next day. Possibly multiple days if I just ignored my limits and pushed through like a silly person.
Fellow spoonies: what is different about your math? What did I forget or represent in ways you would explain differently?
I rolled a 19 on the self-care checklist
Jul. 14th, 2026 05:57 pmThis week the roomies and I donated a bunch of stuff, mowed about half the lawn, got groceries at the ChefStore, darned several socks, cleaned adhesive off a window and applied some rainbow cling film hopefully correctly (but we’ll see), and had several delightful conversations about filk music, growing up in neglectful households, and plans for starting a garden next year. And that is just the stuff we did together.
I have:
* read a book of poems
* unpacked all but 10% of my stuff
* done 2 loads of laundry
* organized a bunch of stuff
* spoken to a supervisor at PODS and told them off for overbooking, backing out of their obligations because they overscheduled themselves, and charging me late storage fees bc they backed out of picking up the POD 3 times (this is no way to run a business, and I’m planning to call the CFPB in the next couple of days)
When I look back and name all of it, it does sound like I’ve been pretty busy. I’m gonna take a minute to have a piece of low-sugar candy and be proud of myself.
I still have not taken the rest of the Washington Jurisprudence exam, and I think I may have psyched myself out about it? Tomorrow I should call PODS (because they owe me $150) and then call one of the massage schools in the state to ask about the rules for taking the test, which I need to do bc otherwise I will continue being a nervous mess about this and not getting it done.
Luck to all of us in our myriad endeavors.
I have:
* read a book of poems
* unpacked all but 10% of my stuff
* done 2 loads of laundry
* organized a bunch of stuff
* spoken to a supervisor at PODS and told them off for overbooking, backing out of their obligations because they overscheduled themselves, and charging me late storage fees bc they backed out of picking up the POD 3 times (this is no way to run a business, and I’m planning to call the CFPB in the next couple of days)
When I look back and name all of it, it does sound like I’ve been pretty busy. I’m gonna take a minute to have a piece of low-sugar candy and be proud of myself.
I still have not taken the rest of the Washington Jurisprudence exam, and I think I may have psyched myself out about it? Tomorrow I should call PODS (because they owe me $150) and then call one of the massage schools in the state to ask about the rules for taking the test, which I need to do bc otherwise I will continue being a nervous mess about this and not getting it done.
Luck to all of us in our myriad endeavors.
Death and the cooking maiden
Jul. 7th, 2026 09:23 pmLost Kitchen Scrolls by the Historical Recipes Preservation Project - “Journey through centuries of historical recipes, carefully transcribed from historical manuscripts and cherished family traditions. With modern kitchen adaptations.”
Do you ever come across things that remind you so strongly of someone who has died that you feel a momentary kinship with everyone who has ever grieved anyone?
So if you’re missing the lovely and lovableminoanmiss, today, well, same.
Do you ever come across things that remind you so strongly of someone who has died that you feel a momentary kinship with everyone who has ever grieved anyone?
So if you’re missing the lovely and lovable
minoanmiss, today, well, same.(no subject)
Jun. 28th, 2026 09:23 pmI got the POD, finally, on Friday, and now have about 50% of my stuff unpacked, though maybe 30% of my things are in the spots they will eventually wind up in? We’ll see.
Merlin, my boyfriend, is having some heavy emotional processing going on with regards to his past, and still took time to come help me:
• get the IKEA shelves built,
• get the desk figured out (a piece of the cord-covering flap was put together upside down by the manufacturer, and can’t be fixed, boo), and
• partially deconstruct the bed frame in the guest room and move the whole business to my bedroom.
New bedroom window pic: https://bsky.app/profile/flamingsword.bsky.social/post/3mpekvb4hps2y
Lmk if you want more pics when stuff is done getting put together? I will try to figure out how to make the space flow as much as possible with my worldly possessions all crammed into this room. How we’re going to use the massage table I have no freaking clue, but we’ll figure it out. We are resourceful folks.
Merlin, my boyfriend, is having some heavy emotional processing going on with regards to his past, and still took time to come help me:
• get the IKEA shelves built,
• get the desk figured out (a piece of the cord-covering flap was put together upside down by the manufacturer, and can’t be fixed, boo), and
• partially deconstruct the bed frame in the guest room and move the whole business to my bedroom.
New bedroom window pic: https://bsky.app/profile/flamingsword.bsky.social/post/3mpekvb4hps2y
Lmk if you want more pics when stuff is done getting put together? I will try to figure out how to make the space flow as much as possible with my worldly possessions all crammed into this room. How we’re going to use the massage table I have no freaking clue, but we’ll figure it out. We are resourceful folks.
Crafting:
Sourcing sustainable notions and trims.
Music:
Marconi Union - Multiforms: Ambient Transmissions vol 3.
Disability:
Accessible Virtual Pride celebration by Calling Up Justice and One Free Community, and some other partnered organizations.
DateAbility App - an online dating forum for people with disabilities. Says it’s screen reader compatible.
Hygiene infographics for disabled and spoonie folks - On Instagram.
Life update: we’re in Oregon, and will hopefully be home either tomorrow night or the next day.
Sourcing sustainable notions and trims.
Music:
Marconi Union - Multiforms: Ambient Transmissions vol 3.
Disability:
Accessible Virtual Pride celebration by Calling Up Justice and One Free Community, and some other partnered organizations.
DateAbility App - an online dating forum for people with disabilities. Says it’s screen reader compatible.
Hygiene infographics for disabled and spoonie folks - On Instagram.
Life update: we’re in Oregon, and will hopefully be home either tomorrow night or the next day.
Symphonies and rivers
Jun. 10th, 2026 10:53 pmI think I am in love with the ghost of Andrea Gibson, and need to buy some of their books.
Andrea Gibson — “For Jenn”:
Andrea Gibson — “For Jenn”:
At 12 years old I started bleeding with the moon
and beating up boys who dreamed of becoming astronauts.
I fought with my knuckles white as stars,
and left bruises the shape of Salem.
There are things we know by heart,
and things we don't.( Read more... )
I’m going to try to catch up on people’s journals as much as I can tonight. If I don’t react to your important post with so much as a <3, please assume I did not see it and drop me a link so i can stay in touch with the things you feel are important bits in your life?
We have achieved Metroplex!
Jun. 9th, 2026 11:07 pmHey, y’all. This is a quick note to say we’re safely in Dallas, just so you know not to worry.
Hope you’re doing well,
-H
Hope you’re doing well,
-H
To do list
Jun. 8th, 2026 10:41 pm• research Crone crowning ceremonies for Ruby’s next birthyday
• study how to have more joy
• do a Shadow work post
• text friends G, J,numb3r_5ev3n, and nyyki about updated schedule
• look at Someday House board on Pinterest.
• study how to have more joy
• do a Shadow work post
• text friends G, J,
numb3r_5ev3n, and nyyki about updated schedule• look at Someday House board on Pinterest.
https://www.tumblr.com/terminusverge/818819426272067584/insomnia-productions-high-quality-tiktoks-otters baby otters learning to swim! So cute!
https://readfoundobject.substack.com/p/they-killed-normal-and-called-it
https://chillhop.bandcamp.com/album/chillhop-esssentials-summer-2026 lofi music on Bandcamp
https://readfoundobject.substack.com/p/they-killed-normal-and-called-it
Have you noticed that the middle is gone from everything? Restaurants, companies, careers, music, retail, the economy itself. What replaced it is a barbell: one enormous weight on each end, nothing in the center, and most of us trying not to get crushed by the bar.
And the replacement does look better every single time, I grant you that. The A24 film is better than the $40 million adult drama from 2007, yeah, we can all agree on that. The Sweetgreen bowl is better than the Applebee’s chicken parm, sure. Your favorite Substack is sharper than the mid-list magazine that folded in 2019. Every replacement is a genuine upgrade. But every replacement serves fewer and fewer people.
[…]
Each time, the thing that died was the thing that served the most people with the least pretension, and each time, the thing that replaced it was a genuine improvement that served fewer people while flattering the taste of a specific class.
The pattern is so consistent it stops looking like a market correction and starts looking like a heist.
https://chillhop.bandcamp.com/album/chillhop-esssentials-summer-2026 lofi music on Bandcamp
