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Things I like to talk about: stuff that I’m curious about or that is counterintuitive, therapy stuff including some ongoing parts/Shadow/reclaiming work, earworms, kvetching about stuff I'm reading (or, rarely, writing), and occasionally raving about fic recs and links. Sometimes I write out my thoughts-naming meditation or something about my weird brand of secular paganism, but those are pretty rare at the moment.
Comments are welcome here, and I will try to reply unless you are probably trolling. As long as you apologize when you hurt someone then we're cool. If all you want to say is a heart/emoji, that's cool, too! If you need cuts with trigger warnings? Please let me know … unless you want me to trigger warn for parts of my identity like the word “queer”. Just. No. I like having company over and want you to feel safe here, but I have to feel safe here, too.
As someone whose body does not always work like it says on the label, I’m no longer putting processing/whining/complaining about that behind a cut. I saw a tumblr post a while back that said one reason abled people are so bad at interacting with disabled people is because we’re kept to the margins as much as possible. That folks don’t have to interact with us with the "I'm fine" mask off very often, so they don’t get enough practice to be good at it - and that is to everyone’s detriment. tumblr OP had a point!
Fandom stuff: I don’t write on AO3 much anymore, but! I'm currently into DC Batfamily crack, and I bookmark some fun and spicy things! A couple years ago Star Wars ate my brain, but I seem to be doing fine in its absence, so who needs brains, really? The fandoms I'm mostly not in anymore where you may have seen my comments include: The MCU, Leverage, The Witcher, The Good Place, Daredevil, Star Trek: AOS, Smallville, X-Men, Stargates SG1 and Atlantis, Teen Wolf, The Losers, and random comments on your musicals and 80's movies fics. (I will sadly no longer be reading Harry Potter or Good Omens fics, for terrible-people-can-suck-a-lemon reasons.)
If someone on DreamWidth OR AO3 is harassing you or doing you a microaggression, drop me a DM? As a white anti-racist ally, an antifascist, and a person who believes in the power of weaponized empathy, I need more practice having uncomfortable conversations with people who need to be gently informed what consequences their actions may be having for themselves and the people they are (hopefully unwittingly) hurting. Or! I can talk smack about the people upsetting you and write insulting haiku about them until you feel validated and can process the bad-feels. Whatever you need, I'm gonna try to be there for that. I take the bonds of community seriously.
FANWORKS POLICY: I do not give permission for my words or works to be fed into an LLM or AI training of any kind. Other than that caveat, if you want to podfic, remix, translate, make fanart, or in any way transform any of my fan works, you go right ahead! Link me!
I do SPAG and basic beta reading for fic under 10k in any of the above-approved fandoms, too. Just PM me.
my imaginary god complex
Nov. 1st, 2026 11:37 pmif I created the world to be just like this,
with its warts and all, then obviously
this is a pantheon where I don't know what I'm doing,
or one where the gods are fighting,
or maybe one where the gods are not so much crazy as higher than Snoop Dogg.
i pretended to gave a god complex to
the school psychologist used to ask us things
that were supposed to be revealing about who we were
but wound up revealing more to me about the biases inherent in modern psychology;
at the tender age of 12 I could have told you
that it was a bunch of badly-applied pseudoscientific nonsense.
might as well have gone back to phrenology and measuring heads.
young toddlers are learning at the fastest rate of their whole lives.
phrenology would dub them all drooling cretins.
i'm not inclined to give that much credit for abundance of good sense
even if they're right about the drool.
with its warts and all, then obviously
this is a pantheon where I don't know what I'm doing,
or one where the gods are fighting,
or maybe one where the gods are not so much crazy as higher than Snoop Dogg.
i pretended to gave a god complex to
the school psychologist used to ask us things
that were supposed to be revealing about who we were
but wound up revealing more to me about the biases inherent in modern psychology;
at the tender age of 12 I could have told you
that it was a bunch of badly-applied pseudoscientific nonsense.
might as well have gone back to phrenology and measuring heads.
young toddlers are learning at the fastest rate of their whole lives.
phrenology would dub them all drooling cretins.
i'm not inclined to give that much credit for abundance of good sense
even if they're right about the drool.
shortest update:
Oct. 26th, 2026 10:24 amwho's got two thumbs and a license to work in their state?! oh hell yeah, babes! now to call ![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
nyyki and then rewrite my old cover letter.
i wish this glowing coal of joy for you as well.
nyyki and then rewrite my old cover letter. i wish this glowing coal of joy for you as well.
What would it take to make us family?
Oct. 25th, 2026 08:07 pmWhimsy:
Things that make us family:
Do ya keep little boxes or bags or bottles or storage containers ... just in case?
Then we are kin.
Have ya'ever been walking in the woods, or on the edge of a field, or by a stream-bank that flooded and washed a bunch of debris downstream, and found a Really Good Stick?
Did ya keep it?
We are kin.
If ya kept that cool looking rock.
If ya went to the shop that sells such things and thought, "I don't need anything here, I have some of all of these kinds of stones at home."
If ya still bought something, because supporting local mineral-loving weirdos is praxis.
We are kin.
Love nature?
Love each other because we are part of nature?
Love the world so much sometimes that it shakes moments breathless?
Then we are kin, and were kin, and will be kin, forever.
Wildflowers don’t last long and don’t make anyone rich and yet if you heard someone call them “pointless,” you would know with certainty that it was foolishness. Be just as confident in defense of your own intrinsic worth.–Jarod K Anderson
Things that make us family:
Do ya keep little boxes or bags or bottles or storage containers ... just in case?
Then we are kin.
Have ya'ever been walking in the woods, or on the edge of a field, or by a stream-bank that flooded and washed a bunch of debris downstream, and found a Really Good Stick?
Did ya keep it?
We are kin.
If ya kept that cool looking rock.
If ya went to the shop that sells such things and thought, "I don't need anything here, I have some of all of these kinds of stones at home."
If ya still bought something, because supporting local mineral-loving weirdos is praxis.
We are kin.
Love nature?
Love each other because we are part of nature?
Love the world so much sometimes that it shakes moments breathless?
Then we are kin, and were kin, and will be kin, forever.
four things make a post
Oct. 12th, 2026 08:27 pm• I think I'm mostly caught up on the posts from the last couple weeks? But I'm not 100% sure, so if you had something big happen and I didn't respond at all, please link me to the thing? I don't want to lose track of you.
• I lured my friendwellfourthings into the Batfamily fandom. Yay! Welcome in! I hope the crack is funny, the porn is filthy, and the adventures taste like freedom.
• I still don't have my license here, grrr argh. Getting anxious about it.
• I have a primary care appointment tomorrow, so I need to drug myself to sleep in about an hour here.
https://youtu.be/Fj-INVmmILo (skip the first 45 seconds to give the Nerdfighter holiday Pizzamas -and it's sales- a miss) - This is an imperfect-but-useful look at productivity by Hank Green. I agree that it's important to value our creativity and our connections over our output. Counterintuitively, prioritizing other things than output can help us maximize our output, but only if we're not neglecting the parts of us that we want to feel like are just for fun - as though fun is not intrinsically motivating.
• I lured my friend
wellfourthings into the Batfamily fandom. Yay! Welcome in! I hope the crack is funny, the porn is filthy, and the adventures taste like freedom. • I still don't have my license here, grrr argh. Getting anxious about it.
• I have a primary care appointment tomorrow, so I need to drug myself to sleep in about an hour here.
https://youtu.be/Fj-INVmmILo (skip the first 45 seconds to give the Nerdfighter holiday Pizzamas -and it's sales- a miss) - This is an imperfect-but-useful look at productivity by Hank Green. I agree that it's important to value our creativity and our connections over our output. Counterintuitively, prioritizing other things than output can help us maximize our output, but only if we're not neglecting the parts of us that we want to feel like are just for fun - as though fun is not intrinsically motivating.
I aten’t dead yet
Oct. 7th, 2026 08:41 pmI have a headache, I still don’t have a license to work in this state, and I’m full of vinegar about both of those at the moment. But I’m working on some fairly interesting projects in the meantime, so let’s just take it as read that this is all a temporary situation, and keep moving on.
I’m trying to catch back up on the friendslist, but I don’t know if that’s going to happen today.
I’m trying to catch back up on the friendslist, but I don’t know if that’s going to happen today.
Jams for today
Sep. 27th, 2026 08:24 pmhttps://ogjessb.bandcamp.com/album/matters-of-the-heart hip-hop/rap/queer studies genre-defying artist from Aotearoa who I can’t stop grooving to.
I’m not finishing this links post
Sep. 23rd, 2026 09:56 pmBecause I have a headache. Boo. But here is some of what is up with me this week.
Supportive compression and joint stabilizing garments that look cool:
https://jelliebend.com/
15 Moon Cakes you can order online for the mid-Autumn festival:
https://www.foodnetwork.com/shopping/mooncakes-you-can-order-online
Youtube short: “I have to say this about gender”
https://youtube.com/shorts/oYONcOtRLu8?si=LMyjHinAZeE4FyZE
Tilcayo! There is a totally new kind of cat in the world, and it is time to celebrate how fucking adorable it looks!
https://www.nbcnews.com/science/environment/new-wild-cat-species-identified-rcna598113
Vermiculture and composting methods: ( more behind cut )
Supportive compression and joint stabilizing garments that look cool:
https://jelliebend.com/
15 Moon Cakes you can order online for the mid-Autumn festival:
https://www.foodnetwork.com/shopping/mooncakes-you-can-order-online
Youtube short: “I have to say this about gender”
https://youtube.com/shorts/oYONcOtRLu8?si=LMyjHinAZeE4FyZE
Tilcayo! There is a totally new kind of cat in the world, and it is time to celebrate how fucking adorable it looks!
https://www.nbcnews.com/science/environment/new-wild-cat-species-identified-rcna598113
Vermiculture and composting methods: ( more behind cut )
• built a console shelf thingy for the TV
• brought speakers upstairs for cobbling together a surround sound setup, maybe
• unpacked some books about gardening, read a chapter on hugelkultur
• talked to some people about some Secret Plans
• talked to some other people about a bunch of other stuff, but still procrastinated on getting the quote for window replacement (boo)
• household chores and cooking
• we found the game controllers and games boxes, which were hiding in a bag downstairs
• built another shelf (!)
• unboxed a bunch ofrubyredrose’s CDs and games today, and got them up on the new shelf
• broke down old boxes and loaded cardboard into the for recycle
• coffee-dyed some fabric for the Making Zen slow stitching event and online video classes
• had a call with the licensing people for WA
• gave my roommates massages to stay in practice
• did crisis management forwellfourthings for a bad day full of doing-stuff-despite-ME/CFS
• brought speakers upstairs for cobbling together a surround sound setup, maybe
• unpacked some books about gardening, read a chapter on hugelkultur
• talked to some people about some Secret Plans
• talked to some other people about a bunch of other stuff, but still procrastinated on getting the quote for window replacement (boo)
• household chores and cooking
• we found the game controllers and games boxes, which were hiding in a bag downstairs
• built another shelf (!)
• unboxed a bunch of
rubyredrose’s CDs and games today, and got them up on the new shelf • broke down old boxes and loaded cardboard into the for recycle
• coffee-dyed some fabric for the Making Zen slow stitching event and online video classes
• had a call with the licensing people for WA
• gave my roommates massages to stay in practice
• did crisis management for
wellfourthings for a bad day full of doing-stuff-despite-ME/CFSMy answers to the networking meme
Sep. 14th, 2026 07:55 pm5 interests you would be willing to talk to a stranger on DW about:
1. Lofi music and jazz
2. Autism & neurodiversity-affirming culture
3. Gardening in the Pacific Northwest and how I’m learning it is very different from the South
4. Massage and fascial connective tissue and the therapeutic movement stuff that keeps that system in balance
5. Being gay and doing (thought)crimes
Are they in your profile interests so that people can find you to talk to?
… some of them? 😅 *sweat-smile-emoji* I’ll be updating that in about 10 minutes.
What are 5 things about you or your life that have changed since you last updated your profile or journal sticky-post?
In reverse order:
1. I moved to the Pacific Nortwest! I moved in with bestiesrubyredrose and ot_atma! It’s great!
2. I turned middle aged and got my first gray hairs! (I’m very proud of them.)
3. I went back to massage school so that I would have enough education hours to come here and get licensed in Washington state.
4. I got divorced from Ghost, my partner of 14 years.
5. I started doing feelings and parts work, and am currently doing occasional work on integrating pieces of my unconscious/Shadow self.
Create a “playlist” of 5 things that have given you that shivery frisson of interest that gives you goosebumps or makes the hair on your arms stand on end.
1. Van Gogh’s Starry Night. Is it overrepresented in art appreciation? Maybe. I still love it and get a bit shivery and teary eyed when I think of it for too long.
2. The tumblr post about the RMS Carpathia. This one. 🥹 *teary-eyed-smile-emoji* People are So Good, sometimes, and god, you have to hope.
3. The Andrea Gibson spoken word poems. Especially this one.
4. The Jarod K Anderson poem The Text
“You are a unique sentence built from the alphabet of our universe.
The letters were here before you and the story will march on
long after you’ve been read,
but you will forever be a part of the definitive text of existence.
It’s too late for you not to matter.”
5. Knowing and trusting that I am loved, even on days when I am too depressed to feel anything other than numb. Knowing that all of you here are with me in that fundamental sense of shared vulnerability. We have each other and we’re not alone, no matter what we’ve been taught to believe of ourselves.
1. Lofi music and jazz
2. Autism & neurodiversity-affirming culture
3. Gardening in the Pacific Northwest and how I’m learning it is very different from the South
4. Massage and fascial connective tissue and the therapeutic movement stuff that keeps that system in balance
5. Being gay and doing (thought)crimes
Are they in your profile interests so that people can find you to talk to?
… some of them? 😅 *sweat-smile-emoji* I’ll be updating that in about 10 minutes.
What are 5 things about you or your life that have changed since you last updated your profile or journal sticky-post?
In reverse order:
1. I moved to the Pacific Nortwest! I moved in with besties
rubyredrose and ot_atma! It’s great!2. I turned middle aged and got my first gray hairs! (I’m very proud of them.)
3. I went back to massage school so that I would have enough education hours to come here and get licensed in Washington state.
4. I got divorced from Ghost, my partner of 14 years.
5. I started doing feelings and parts work, and am currently doing occasional work on integrating pieces of my unconscious/Shadow self.
Create a “playlist” of 5 things that have given you that shivery frisson of interest that gives you goosebumps or makes the hair on your arms stand on end.
1. Van Gogh’s Starry Night. Is it overrepresented in art appreciation? Maybe. I still love it and get a bit shivery and teary eyed when I think of it for too long.
2. The tumblr post about the RMS Carpathia. This one. 🥹 *teary-eyed-smile-emoji* People are So Good, sometimes, and god, you have to hope.
3. The Andrea Gibson spoken word poems. Especially this one.
4. The Jarod K Anderson poem The Text
“You are a unique sentence built from the alphabet of our universe.
The letters were here before you and the story will march on
long after you’ve been read,
but you will forever be a part of the definitive text of existence.
It’s too late for you not to matter.”
5. Knowing and trusting that I am loved, even on days when I am too depressed to feel anything other than numb. Knowing that all of you here are with me in that fundamental sense of shared vulnerability. We have each other and we’re not alone, no matter what we’ve been taught to believe of ourselves.
Networking Meme!
Sep. 14th, 2026 12:44 pmFeel free to do as much or as little of this as you feel like!
5 interests you would be willing to talk to a stranger on DW about:
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Are they in your profile interests so that people can find you to talk to?
What are 5 things about you or your life that have changed since you last updated your profile or journal sticky-post?
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Create a “playlist” of 5 things that have given you that shivery frisson of interest that gives you goosebumps or makes the hair on your arms stand on end.
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5 interests you would be willing to talk to a stranger on DW about:
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Are they in your profile interests so that people can find you to talk to?
What are 5 things about you or your life that have changed since you last updated your profile or journal sticky-post?
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Create a “playlist” of 5 things that have given you that shivery frisson of interest that gives you goosebumps or makes the hair on your arms stand on end.
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Have I mentioned that bodies are gross and inconvenient lately? Because they are. Ouch. 😣
Today is another day closer to getting my license, which I’m starting to get anxious about, frankly. C’mon Washington, gimme my license. I want to work! But no, I get to wait longer for it.
At least at this rate, the house will be ready for winter when it gets here? I want the yard to move garden-wards over the next few years, so I’m laying foundations for that now, planning, and researching, and pulling weeds. Observing the flow of sunlight and water across the angles of the land is kind of step zero in a process like this, and knowing where subsurface structures like the septic tank outflows are is helpful and economical to plan for as well.
[ ] Mulch? How much 3”* 6’ sq = ?
[ ] “Organic”+“slow release” fertilizers - research for salad greens, Berry bushes
[ ] Pull out Rose of Sharon, plant wildflowers and native species
[ ] combine grass mulch 2” under wood mulch 2” for decomposing heat to protect plant roots in winter
[ ] buy in-ground worm mulch bucket
? - plant a rose where we’re killing off the invasive English ivy on the front fence?
? - prepare / till soil on level part of backyard for planting next season?
https://0101.bandcamp.com/album/kemono-teatime-original-soundtrack-extended today’s jam is cute video game music
https://handmadepalestine.com/ A way to get unique handcrafts that support good causes.
Evie Unraveling YouTube https://youtu.be/RryDZjkLao8 | Fighting Fa$cism with Stitches and Pasta
Today is another day closer to getting my license, which I’m starting to get anxious about, frankly. C’mon Washington, gimme my license. I want to work! But no, I get to wait longer for it.
At least at this rate, the house will be ready for winter when it gets here? I want the yard to move garden-wards over the next few years, so I’m laying foundations for that now, planning, and researching, and pulling weeds. Observing the flow of sunlight and water across the angles of the land is kind of step zero in a process like this, and knowing where subsurface structures like the septic tank outflows are is helpful and economical to plan for as well.
[ ] Mulch? How much 3”* 6’ sq = ?
[ ] “Organic”+“slow release” fertilizers - research for salad greens, Berry bushes
[ ] Pull out Rose of Sharon, plant wildflowers and native species
[ ] combine grass mulch 2” under wood mulch 2” for decomposing heat to protect plant roots in winter
[ ] buy in-ground worm mulch bucket
? - plant a rose where we’re killing off the invasive English ivy on the front fence?
? - prepare / till soil on level part of backyard for planting next season?
https://0101.bandcamp.com/album/kemono-teatime-original-soundtrack-extended today’s jam is cute video game music
https://handmadepalestine.com/ A way to get unique handcrafts that support good causes.
Evie Unraveling YouTube https://youtu.be/RryDZjkLao8 | Fighting Fa$cism with Stitches and Pasta
THE AROMANTIC AGENDA or: romantic attraction is FAKE: a presentation | Dorian Gay / Dorian.crafts on YouTube
- this is an extremely tongue-in-cheek look at socially constructed romance and attraction from the aromantic perspective. Informative and occasionally hilarious, as well as highly relatable (to me anyway, and dear tiny gods do I not need another identity right now).
10 Things Japanese Homes Never Have — That Make American Homes Exhausting | Two Houses by Ken Tsukamoto on YouTube - Such a good breakdown of cultures and lived experiences as a response to unique social pressures and physical challenges!
https://leavesubstack.com/ So I knew that substack had a rightwing gun nut problem, I did not know they were platforming and paying actual Nazis. So now I’m cancelling my newsletter subscription for Letters From An American, professor Heather Cox Richardson’s substack, that I literally just recommended to two people who like history and politics and the confluence thereof.
So what are your newsletters on other platforms that don’t support genocidal bullshit? How do you keep up with the news in ways that don’t inspire anxiety?
- this is an extremely tongue-in-cheek look at socially constructed romance and attraction from the aromantic perspective. Informative and occasionally hilarious, as well as highly relatable (to me anyway, and dear tiny gods do I not need another identity right now).
10 Things Japanese Homes Never Have — That Make American Homes Exhausting | Two Houses by Ken Tsukamoto on YouTube - Such a good breakdown of cultures and lived experiences as a response to unique social pressures and physical challenges!
https://leavesubstack.com/ So I knew that substack had a rightwing gun nut problem, I did not know they were platforming and paying actual Nazis. So now I’m cancelling my newsletter subscription for Letters From An American, professor Heather Cox Richardson’s substack, that I literally just recommended to two people who like history and politics and the confluence thereof.
So what are your newsletters on other platforms that don’t support genocidal bullshit? How do you keep up with the news in ways that don’t inspire anxiety?
Vanquishing dastardly brambles
Sep. 2nd, 2026 11:17 pmThings I have accomplished today:
• bought native red clover seeds, so that every time I pull up a plant that doesn’t get to stay where it is (hogweed, baby western red cedar, poisonous hemlock) I will have seeds to plant there that I want in that spot
• battled back the blackberry canes and took ~5-10 lbs of it to the compost pile (take that, you thorny fuckers!)
• Listened to lofi
• tried to find a cool-toned teal eyeshadow that doesn’t have freaking asbestos in it, and I did eventually find one, and I should be able to turn it into a crème eyeshadow, the small gods willing
• bought the stuff I need to make more of my “Breakfast of Champions Chocolate Protein Slurry™️” which I make sound less than delicious so not everyone will want it. If you are looking for a recipe, tho, it’s pretty simple: 1 part acacia fiber, 1 part inulin powder (not a typo), 1 part cocoa powder, and 12 parts whey protein - preferably the kind with added vitamins and minerals. Putting about a tablespoon of heavy cream into a 12 fl oz serving can also cover a host of texture sins
• phone call withotter, who is thinking of putting up solar panels on their house (give them a shoutout in the comment section if you are willing to be asked questions about such?)
• sewed some more hexipuffs onto the Beekeepers Chair Cover Of Great Awesomeness
• gotten prepared for the upcoming probably-horrible period by buying a bunch of chocolate and crunchy things
• bought bulbs to plant tomorrow to start establishing a bed of tulips and dandelions over by the front of the lawn
• tried to catch up on people’s journals … heh … that’s not going super well …
So that’s what I did today with all my spoons.
• bought native red clover seeds, so that every time I pull up a plant that doesn’t get to stay where it is (hogweed, baby western red cedar, poisonous hemlock) I will have seeds to plant there that I want in that spot
• battled back the blackberry canes and took ~5-10 lbs of it to the compost pile (take that, you thorny fuckers!)
• Listened to lofi
• tried to find a cool-toned teal eyeshadow that doesn’t have freaking asbestos in it, and I did eventually find one, and I should be able to turn it into a crème eyeshadow, the small gods willing
• bought the stuff I need to make more of my “Breakfast of Champions Chocolate Protein Slurry™️” which I make sound less than delicious so not everyone will want it. If you are looking for a recipe, tho, it’s pretty simple: 1 part acacia fiber, 1 part inulin powder (not a typo), 1 part cocoa powder, and 12 parts whey protein - preferably the kind with added vitamins and minerals. Putting about a tablespoon of heavy cream into a 12 fl oz serving can also cover a host of texture sins
• phone call with
otter, who is thinking of putting up solar panels on their house (give them a shoutout in the comment section if you are willing to be asked questions about such?)• sewed some more hexipuffs onto the Beekeepers Chair Cover Of Great Awesomeness
• gotten prepared for the upcoming probably-horrible period by buying a bunch of chocolate and crunchy things
• bought bulbs to plant tomorrow to start establishing a bed of tulips and dandelions over by the front of the lawn
• tried to catch up on people’s journals … heh … that’s not going super well …
So that’s what I did today with all my spoons.
(no subject)
Aug. 26th, 2026 09:22 pmI started having a bursitis flare last night, so I have been stiff and in pain the last 24 hours, and had painsomnia about it half of last night. Thankfully those are getting better and should be back to normal levels by the time I wake up tomorrow.
I got very little done today, and also kinda this week. The friend of a friend is mostly moved now, we just have to start cleaning the apartment so that they don’t charge her some ridiculous amount for cleaning and repairs. It’s technically illegal in this state to do that, but … landlords are mostly the bloodthirsty type who can sniff out folks who are too financially desperate to be able to mount a legal defense. Which she is.
I need to catch up here on DW, which I’m about to try to do. I may need to unfollow a few RSS feed pages that I just kind of skim, bc I am getting overwhelmed again. Boo. Boo, I say! Thumbs down, do not want.
I got very little done today, and also kinda this week. The friend of a friend is mostly moved now, we just have to start cleaning the apartment so that they don’t charge her some ridiculous amount for cleaning and repairs. It’s technically illegal in this state to do that, but … landlords are mostly the bloodthirsty type who can sniff out folks who are too financially desperate to be able to mount a legal defense. Which she is.
I need to catch up here on DW, which I’m about to try to do. I may need to unfollow a few RSS feed pages that I just kind of skim, bc I am getting overwhelmed again. Boo. Boo, I say! Thumbs down, do not want.
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Aug. 17th, 2026 12:27 amIt is after midnight and we just got home from helping out a friend of a friend with an all hands on deck emergency packing for a move out date by the end of the month. There are wack family disability/ill health things going down, it’s all very fraught and sad and much better-handled in other countries. Either way, fuck this country, fuck illness and disabilities, and fuck the confluence of those circumstances.
I will talk to some of you tomorrow if possible.
I will talk to some of you tomorrow if possible.
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Aug. 11th, 2026 11:00 amYesterday I had cramps all morning and the early afternoon, but my period has now stopped overnight, and will probably pause for 2-3 days before starting again. Dysmenorrhea they call it, basically translating to “your body is bad at periods”. Also I keep having headaches this week, possible I need new glasses? Yay.
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In more fun news,
• I got to visit Merlin, which was very nice. 😊🥰😏
• My mood is still really good when my pain isn’t regularly hitting 5s and 6s, which is still better most of the time.
• I have started sewing together the Hexipuffs to make a big cushiony cover for the office chair at my desk. Let’s hope this goes well, I guess. Brightly colored pic of the start of this project can be found here.
• I’m making socks and slippers for folks for this year’s Yule, so I have enough time to knit things without having to work on large projects that might get boring. Also I’m learning slightly more complex architectural knitting in the form of the Linearity slippers.
• I am writing poems, sort of? But they will take a long time to get polished enough to post.
*hugs and pets and again-hugs again*
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In more fun news,
• I got to visit Merlin, which was very nice. 😊🥰😏
• My mood is still really good when my pain isn’t regularly hitting 5s and 6s, which is still better most of the time.
• I have started sewing together the Hexipuffs to make a big cushiony cover for the office chair at my desk. Let’s hope this goes well, I guess. Brightly colored pic of the start of this project can be found here.
• I’m making socks and slippers for folks for this year’s Yule, so I have enough time to knit things without having to work on large projects that might get boring. Also I’m learning slightly more complex architectural knitting in the form of the Linearity slippers.
• I am writing poems, sort of? But they will take a long time to get polished enough to post.
*hugs and pets and again-hugs again*
Enter flamingsword, hissing like a wet cat
Aug. 7th, 2026 09:14 pmI’ve been having intermittent dizzy spells, weird bodies-are-jerks symptoms, and some extra pain. I think I have an ear infection? Boo.
I spent all of my spoons today keeping a friend company on the phone trying to let her talk herself down from a panic attack, and three hours later her nerves still did not appear to be less agitated? Boo!
I sent my professional licensing paperwork off a couple weeks ago. Today I found out the state of Washington’s healthcare licensing department is *two months behind?* Boo! Hiss! Blargh!
I will be okay financially, but I *will* need to start working out every other day. At. Least. Because my muscles will start deconditioning soon if it has not already begun.
I spent all of my spoons today keeping a friend company on the phone trying to let her talk herself down from a panic attack, and three hours later her nerves still did not appear to be less agitated? Boo!
I sent my professional licensing paperwork off a couple weeks ago. Today I found out the state of Washington’s healthcare licensing department is *two months behind?* Boo! Hiss! Blargh!
I will be okay financially, but I *will* need to start working out every other day. At. Least. Because my muscles will start deconditioning soon if it has not already begun.
Future happiness
Jul. 26th, 2026 02:13 pmI think I have as good a handle on stopping my life from sucking as I am likely to get for now. I think it’s time to change course and start pursuing ways to be happier? I don’t work into the positive aspect very often, or work at making my life more joyful instead of less stressful, and maybe the next year of changes should be doing this. I started this kind of by accident by moving out here, and this should be a continuing condition.
Anybody got Thoughts on where to start? I sometimes miss real obvious stuff but my embarrassment is not a good enough reason to not point it out to me.
Anybody got Thoughts on where to start? I sometimes miss real obvious stuff but my embarrassment is not a good enough reason to not point it out to me.
A poem, and how I’m doing
Jul. 23rd, 2026 10:33 amWinter Plum Fairytale
By Teddywolf
Summary:
When Robert Frost
first wrote
about the plums
eaten by William Carlos Williams
in an icy wood
while trawling the Internet
I think I have more energy than I used to? Only by like 10-15%, but … that’s not nothing. I haven’t changed medication, I’m not much further into perimenopause than I was, the only vitamins that I’m taking now that I wasn’t before are the red yeast rice for my cholesterol and the turmeric-ginger blend for my joints. Those are not reported to have this effect.
I’m pretty sure I’m not imagining this, either. Maybe it’s just that I have “work” to do that is taking care of two of my favorite people? Or that I’m finally taking a long vacation and have let my stress unspool for a while? Is it being in Washington where I’m less allergic? Some combination of all these factors? I don’t even know, y’all. I’ll take it, but it’s freaking weird to wake up some mornings and feel ready to face the day and Do All The Things!
Today’s self-care-and-connection dice rolls are 2 and 92 so I’m going to look at paintings and things online, and emailnyyki about why I admire her and how valuable she is in my life.
I wish for us all bigger spoon drawers, and people worth taking care of.
By Teddywolf
Summary:
When Robert Frost
first wrote
about the plums
eaten by William Carlos Williams
in an icy wood
while trawling the Internet
I think I have more energy than I used to? Only by like 10-15%, but … that’s not nothing. I haven’t changed medication, I’m not much further into perimenopause than I was, the only vitamins that I’m taking now that I wasn’t before are the red yeast rice for my cholesterol and the turmeric-ginger blend for my joints. Those are not reported to have this effect.
I’m pretty sure I’m not imagining this, either. Maybe it’s just that I have “work” to do that is taking care of two of my favorite people? Or that I’m finally taking a long vacation and have let my stress unspool for a while? Is it being in Washington where I’m less allergic? Some combination of all these factors? I don’t even know, y’all. I’ll take it, but it’s freaking weird to wake up some mornings and feel ready to face the day and Do All The Things!
Today’s self-care-and-connection dice rolls are 2 and 92 so I’m going to look at paintings and things online, and email
nyyki about why I admire her and how valuable she is in my life. I wish for us all bigger spoon drawers, and people worth taking care of.
