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Things I like to talk about: stuff that I’m curious about or that is counterintuitive, therapy stuff including some ongoing parts/Shadow/reclaiming work, earworms, kvetching about stuff I'm reading (or, rarely, writing), and occasionally raving about fic recs and links. Sometimes I write out my thoughts-naming meditation or something about my weird brand of secular paganism, but those are pretty rare at the moment.
Comments are welcome here, and I will try to reply unless you are probably trolling. As long as you apologize when you hurt someone then we're cool. If all you want to say is a heart/emoji, that's cool, too! If you need cuts with trigger warnings? Please let me know … unless you want me to trigger warn for parts of my identity like the word “queer”. Just. No. I like having company over and want you to feel safe here, but I have to feel safe here, too.
As someone whose body does not always work like it says on the label, I’m no longer putting processing/whining/complaining about that behind a cut. I saw a tumblr post a while back that said one reason abled people are so bad at interacting with disabled people is because we’re kept to the margins as much as possible. That folks don’t have to interact with us with the "I'm fine" mask off very often, so they don’t get enough practice to be good at it - and that is to everyone’s detriment. tumblr OP had a point!
Fandom stuff: I don’t write on AO3 much anymore, but! I'm currently into DC Batfamily crack, and I bookmark some fun and spicy things! A couple years ago Star Wars ate my brain, but I seem to be doing fine in its absence, so who needs brains, really? The fandoms I'm mostly not in anymore where you may have seen my comments include: The MCU, Leverage, The Witcher, The Good Place, Daredevil, Star Trek: AOS, Smallville, X-Men, Stargates SG1 and Atlantis, Teen Wolf, The Losers, and random comments on your musicals and 80's movies fics. (I will sadly no longer be reading Harry Potter or Good Omens fics, for terrible-people-can-suck-a-lemon reasons.)
If someone on DreamWidth OR AO3 is harassing you or doing you a microaggression, drop me a DM? As a white anti-racist ally, an antifascist, and a person who believes in the power of weaponized empathy, I need more practice having uncomfortable conversations with people who need to be gently informed what consequences their actions may be having for themselves and the people they are (hopefully unwittingly) hurting. Or! I can talk smack about the people upsetting you and write insulting haiku about them until you feel validated and can process the bad-feels. Whatever you need, I'm gonna try to be there for that. I take the bonds of community seriously.
FANWORKS POLICY: I do not give permission for my words or works to be fed into an LLM or AI training of any kind. Other than that caveat, if you want to podfic, remix, translate, make fanart, or in any way transform any of my fan works, you go right ahead! Link me!
I do SPAG and basic beta reading for fic under 10k in any of the above-approved fandoms, too. Just PM me.
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May. 10th, 2026 10:47 pmCut for gross medical TMI for people who have those squicks - ( Read more... )
4 ironies make a post
May. 7th, 2026 11:27 pm• I started a new migraine preventative midafternoon today, and about 5 minutes later got a headache, 🤕. Hopefully it’ll sort itself out by morning.
• I finally remembered to book the moving van today, yay for brain dumps! They seem to be the pen and paper equivalent of taking everything out of your purse and shaking it to find the keys you know are in there but can’t find. Sometimes you really do have to turn things off and back on again.
• I have started packing up the bathroom and the closet, and I feel less ready for the move than I did a few days ago? Dunno what that’s about.
• I feel better enough to work tomorrow, and am encouraging everyone to mask up bc even the illnesses out there that aren’t the flu and Covid are apparently still fucking miserable to have. Seriously, do not get this thing. I don’t even remember Tuesday, and Monday is real sketchy in some places but what I know of from my texts sent at the time is that I was “sleepy, groggy, dizzy, achey, cough-y, headaching, and cold. It’s like the seven dwarves of sick in here.”
• I finally remembered to book the moving van today, yay for brain dumps! They seem to be the pen and paper equivalent of taking everything out of your purse and shaking it to find the keys you know are in there but can’t find. Sometimes you really do have to turn things off and back on again.
• I have started packing up the bathroom and the closet, and I feel less ready for the move than I did a few days ago? Dunno what that’s about.
• I feel better enough to work tomorrow, and am encouraging everyone to mask up bc even the illnesses out there that aren’t the flu and Covid are apparently still fucking miserable to have. Seriously, do not get this thing. I don’t even remember Tuesday, and Monday is real sketchy in some places but what I know of from my texts sent at the time is that I was “sleepy, groggy, dizzy, achey, cough-y, headaching, and cold. It’s like the seven dwarves of sick in here.”
The Golden Shadow
May. 4th, 2026 06:43 pmSo in psychotherapy circles where Shadow work is a thing, one of the ways you get people to buy in on the difficult work is by identifying the “good”/adaptive/healthy parts of the self that got relegated to the unconscious and using them as, basically, bait. They are the carrot to the rest of the Shadow’s stick, the parts that people want and that keep them invested in the process. And by them I now, of course, mean us. Bc I am going to name all of the traits I had as a kid that I want back, damn it, and I’m going to try to integrate one of those traits every time I blog about Shadow work. ( Read more... )
https://shadowselfdiscovery.com/how-to-do-shadow-work
https://www.thetappingsolution.com/blog/vagus-nerve-tapping/
https://neurodivergentinsights.com/not-everything-needs-an-upside/
“Brains are survival engines, not truth detectors.” —-Peter Watts
In other news, I am sick but can’t sleep yet. It came on suddenly, so I’m not prepared for it, and that’s a failure to extrapolate on my part. Boo. At least we had Covid/Flu A/Flu B tests in the house? So it’s probably not those.
I am about to go scoot down the stairs on my butt like a toddler to get food. Maybe I will take a tote bag to load up and crawl back up with it. That sounds like a plan.
Good luck out there, and please mask up. This shit is rough and I’ve only been sick for two hours.
https://www.thetappingsolution.com/blog/vagus-nerve-tapping/
https://neurodivergentinsights.com/not-everything-needs-an-upside/
“Brains are survival engines, not truth detectors.” —-Peter Watts
In other news, I am sick but can’t sleep yet. It came on suddenly, so I’m not prepared for it, and that’s a failure to extrapolate on my part. Boo. At least we had Covid/Flu A/Flu B tests in the house? So it’s probably not those.
I am about to go scoot down the stairs on my butt like a toddler to get food. Maybe I will take a tote bag to load up and crawl back up with it. That sounds like a plan.
Good luck out there, and please mask up. This shit is rough and I’ve only been sick for two hours.
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Apr. 29th, 2026 11:14 amMy big leg scrape has mostly healed up and looks like, if it scars at all, it will be tiny. Yay!
Also: I put peach sweetener and a splash of cream in the sun tea from yesterday and it is so complex and lovely.
Also also: my head and body do not ache, and I feel okay to work later today.
It’s being a much better morning than the two previous days, and I hope your morning is equally delightful.
Also: I put peach sweetener and a splash of cream in the sun tea from yesterday and it is so complex and lovely.
Also also: my head and body do not ache, and I feel okay to work later today.
It’s being a much better morning than the two previous days, and I hope your morning is equally delightful.
Not much to report.
Apr. 24th, 2026 05:52 pmI’m getting ready for the big, cross-country move by packing things, and getting rid of things, and deconstructing things. It is making my room look kinda barren and lonesome.
I’m thinking about dropping some money on a few ebooks for figuring out spoons and energy expenditure bc I am not getting much done on my days off. I may need to back off to three massages per day on Fri-Sat-Sun? We shall see.
Family are doing as well as they can be, all things considered. I hope y’all are, too.
I’m thinking about dropping some money on a few ebooks for figuring out spoons and energy expenditure bc I am not getting much done on my days off. I may need to back off to three massages per day on Fri-Sat-Sun? We shall see.
Family are doing as well as they can be, all things considered. I hope y’all are, too.
[Edit: my stepmother has died of cancer. She and I were not close, but Sister C has asked me to reach out to Dad. I have been plotting for his mental health.]
Okay, so (my and other folk’s) ideas for getting Dad to process his grief in productive ways( are as follows: )
If you have an arguably toxically masculine, undiagnosed autistic man in your life whose behavior you can predict, throw me a comment if you have good ideas for directing grief into healthy outlets.
Okay, so (my and other folk’s) ideas for getting Dad to process his grief in productive ways( are as follows: )
If you have an arguably toxically masculine, undiagnosed autistic man in your life whose behavior you can predict, throw me a comment if you have good ideas for directing grief into healthy outlets.
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Apr. 17th, 2026 01:05 pmWoke up with a migraine, but took stuff for it as soon as I realized it wasn’t just a sinus headache. Now I get to drive to work and work a whole day and drive home with a migraine hangover. Yesterday sucked, and today is not looking much better.
I’ll be okay, later, but today I’m just kinda hanging on.
Thanks to everyone for recent kind comments. Y’all make my life better.
I’ll be okay, later, but today I’m just kinda hanging on.
Thanks to everyone for recent kind comments. Y’all make my life better.
Moar memes!
Apr. 11th, 2026 11:33 pmYou know what I haven’t seen in a minute? An ask meme! Y’all are interesting and I have things I want to know about you, so I propose a trade of information.
Comment to ask a question about any of the interests on my profile, and I will tell you about what it means to me. Post this on your journal so I can ask you stuff, too?
https://flamingsword.dreamwidth.org/profile
Comment to ask a question about any of the interests on my profile, and I will tell you about what it means to me. Post this on your journal so I can ask you stuff, too?
https://flamingsword.dreamwidth.org/profile
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Apr. 9th, 2026 12:08 pmUntil Batrick died, I was vaguely angry at most aspects of Texas government, and blisteringly irate at a few of them, but was not really thinking in terms of it being a direct threat to people I knew, or that my staying here would be considered a tacit endorsement for living in Texas, thus making me a threat to my friends - a thing which is Utterly. Unacceptable.
But their death really woke me up to the fact that the estimated 3 THOUSAND preventable deaths per year in Texas was not a flaw in the public health plans of those in power. It was a feature. A deliberate and eugenicist decision was made that me and my friends, through no fault of our own, should die, because we take up resources that could be used to give tax breaks to oil companies that pollute and warm our planet, weapons manufacturers that kill its populace, and data centers that are driving up prices for electricity and clean water. That Bat’s death was by design made me so … verklempt with rage, and fear for my friends, and guilt for my own complicity, and even gave me fear for myself. Maybe I had those feelings before and just didn’t know - alexithymia is a motherfucker like that.
My relationship with Ghost was already starting to get alienated and distant when Batrick died, and if divorce became likely, I would not be able to support myself to anything above the Medicaid “donut hole” coverage gap. So I was dealing with naming my feelings in my grief-processing protocols, and kept coming up with all this tangential shit about my marriage, my life circumstances, and my location that I wasn’t expecting to find, and most of it was … not great.
Texas was making me feel all these things and I could finally recognize all of those feelings that were in my body without my knowing it, and it was pretty shitty that in addition to my friend being dead, I had to have even more feelings about him being stochastically murdered by fascist health policies.
And dealing with the fear, the fact that I’m not a badass anymore, nor capable of financially protecting my friends, nor blameless in my choosing to stay and fight giving cover to making others like Bat feel safe enough to stay when he should have left … all of that required getting the hell out of Texas and rearranging my life to deal with those risks (which is an ongoing project, but that’s another entry).
But their death really woke me up to the fact that the estimated 3 THOUSAND preventable deaths per year in Texas was not a flaw in the public health plans of those in power. It was a feature. A deliberate and eugenicist decision was made that me and my friends, through no fault of our own, should die, because we take up resources that could be used to give tax breaks to oil companies that pollute and warm our planet, weapons manufacturers that kill its populace, and data centers that are driving up prices for electricity and clean water. That Bat’s death was by design made me so … verklempt with rage, and fear for my friends, and guilt for my own complicity, and even gave me fear for myself. Maybe I had those feelings before and just didn’t know - alexithymia is a motherfucker like that.
My relationship with Ghost was already starting to get alienated and distant when Batrick died, and if divorce became likely, I would not be able to support myself to anything above the Medicaid “donut hole” coverage gap. So I was dealing with naming my feelings in my grief-processing protocols, and kept coming up with all this tangential shit about my marriage, my life circumstances, and my location that I wasn’t expecting to find, and most of it was … not great.
Texas was making me feel all these things and I could finally recognize all of those feelings that were in my body without my knowing it, and it was pretty shitty that in addition to my friend being dead, I had to have even more feelings about him being stochastically murdered by fascist health policies.
And dealing with the fear, the fact that I’m not a badass anymore, nor capable of financially protecting my friends, nor blameless in my choosing to stay and fight giving cover to making others like Bat feel safe enough to stay when he should have left … all of that required getting the hell out of Texas and rearranging my life to deal with those risks (which is an ongoing project, but that’s another entry).
Hark! A meme!
Apr. 6th, 2026 08:49 pmThe 5 Spells Meme
You are a magician, and you have immense power, but it can only be channeled into FIVE SPELLS. You can cast the spells on yourself or as many other people as you like, an infinite number of times. Your casting range is as big as you decide it is, but no larger than the orbit of the Earth around the Sun. No building Dyson spheres, sorry. I didn't make the rules. So: what are your 5 priorities? You can take as much time as you like to think it over, and it took me about 16 hours of turning things over in my mind.
My answers are:
1. Cause Disbelief - All within the affected area can suddenly spot the flaws that the caster can see in an idea, religion, or other form of dogma. Imagine if the whole planet suddenly spotted the massive flaws in capitalism, and instead of thinking wack stuff like "That's the exception that proves the rule" and dismissing the cognitive dissonance with a thought-terminating cliche, they thought "Hey, this has more problems than I was thinking it had. Maybe this isn't such a good idea to base our whole economy on." The world would be radically different within 5 years, and I wouldn't even need a guillotine to do it.
2. Heal Person - heals a person to maximum hit points. Cancer? LOL, NO. I don't think so.
3. Heal Trauma - heals a mind of the terrible things that happened or the terrible absences of connection that traumatize us and break our ability to form narratives and feel like real people. That next 5 years is going to look way different, and the 20 after it will be a golden age of growth if we can get past our aversion and psychic pain associated with growth, to which end:
4. Create Outrun Bullshit Drug - For 1D4 hours, a person taking this non-addictive magical drug will experience mild euphoria and easier physical pleasure, but their mind will work faster instead of slower - so fast that they can spot the bullshit that they've been trained to think but that they don't really want to believe. I want it to wear off fairly quickly so that people are incentivized to do the work on themselves that makes them better people. It might slowly change our culture towards more easy acceptance of the self, less hiding and holding shame, and less feeling trapped and frozen inside the wicked mess problem of being a person in a world that has been manipulated into being an unwinnable game.
5. Teleport - teleports self or others any distance within the Earth's orbit. This one is just for fun, because I want to take my besties out for Indian food. In like, Mumbai.
Credit for this meme goes to![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
ot_atma. A blank copy of the meme will be in the comments.
You are a magician, and you have immense power, but it can only be channeled into FIVE SPELLS. You can cast the spells on yourself or as many other people as you like, an infinite number of times. Your casting range is as big as you decide it is, but no larger than the orbit of the Earth around the Sun. No building Dyson spheres, sorry. I didn't make the rules. So: what are your 5 priorities? You can take as much time as you like to think it over, and it took me about 16 hours of turning things over in my mind.
My answers are:
1. Cause Disbelief - All within the affected area can suddenly spot the flaws that the caster can see in an idea, religion, or other form of dogma. Imagine if the whole planet suddenly spotted the massive flaws in capitalism, and instead of thinking wack stuff like "That's the exception that proves the rule" and dismissing the cognitive dissonance with a thought-terminating cliche, they thought "Hey, this has more problems than I was thinking it had. Maybe this isn't such a good idea to base our whole economy on." The world would be radically different within 5 years, and I wouldn't even need a guillotine to do it.
2. Heal Person - heals a person to maximum hit points. Cancer? LOL, NO. I don't think so.
3. Heal Trauma - heals a mind of the terrible things that happened or the terrible absences of connection that traumatize us and break our ability to form narratives and feel like real people. That next 5 years is going to look way different, and the 20 after it will be a golden age of growth if we can get past our aversion and psychic pain associated with growth, to which end:
4. Create Outrun Bullshit Drug - For 1D4 hours, a person taking this non-addictive magical drug will experience mild euphoria and easier physical pleasure, but their mind will work faster instead of slower - so fast that they can spot the bullshit that they've been trained to think but that they don't really want to believe. I want it to wear off fairly quickly so that people are incentivized to do the work on themselves that makes them better people. It might slowly change our culture towards more easy acceptance of the self, less hiding and holding shame, and less feeling trapped and frozen inside the wicked mess problem of being a person in a world that has been manipulated into being an unwinnable game.
5. Teleport - teleports self or others any distance within the Earth's orbit. This one is just for fun, because I want to take my besties out for Indian food. In like, Mumbai.
Credit for this meme goes to
ot_atma. A blank copy of the meme will be in the comments.Hey, y'all. It has been a minute and I have been busy running around like the dude with the lint roller at a black velvet fashion show. I am now:
• working at the business side of the school I was at, having finally gotten my license to work in North Carolina.
• knitting another Melt The ICE hat, this one in a deeper burgundy.
• Doing the math on how to move money around to pay for the interstate move.
• having second, third, and fourth thoughts about some of the stuff I was planning to do with the move, for money and airport security reasons.
• generally overthinking a lot of stuff and being an anxious ball of stress, especially today, now that I don't feel well.
• probably dealing with something intestinal that hit right after I got off a call this morning and kind of wrenched my day away from being productive. Boo. Hiss.
• not going to bother with most of the links I wanted to make the second links post into. :\
• finally doing the shadow work that I have been wanting to do for like a couple of years now. (which may have some stuff to do with why I am anxious, bc too much processing).
https://transresilience.org/issues/fda-registry/read
https://ndncollective.org/land-back/
https://www.ted.com/talks/adam_galinsky_how_to_speak_up_for_yourself
https://www.sciencealert.com/huge-study-reveals-2-vaccines-that-appear-to-reduce-dementia-risk#
https://embrace-autism.com/executive-skills-questionnaire-revised/
https://www.ted.com/podcasts/how-to-be-a-better-human/set-boundaries-and-find-peace-w-nedra-glover-tawwab-transcript
Meow. I feel puny and badly-tempered and I can't even responsibly drink about it. wtf.
Still, I haven't literally murdered anyone about it? So that's good. Gonna pat myself on the back about that.
• working at the business side of the school I was at, having finally gotten my license to work in North Carolina.
• knitting another Melt The ICE hat, this one in a deeper burgundy.
• Doing the math on how to move money around to pay for the interstate move.
• having second, third, and fourth thoughts about some of the stuff I was planning to do with the move, for money and airport security reasons.
• generally overthinking a lot of stuff and being an anxious ball of stress, especially today, now that I don't feel well.
• probably dealing with something intestinal that hit right after I got off a call this morning and kind of wrenched my day away from being productive. Boo. Hiss.
• not going to bother with most of the links I wanted to make the second links post into. :\
• finally doing the shadow work that I have been wanting to do for like a couple of years now. (which may have some stuff to do with why I am anxious, bc too much processing).
https://transresilience.org/issues/fda-registry/read
https://ndncollective.org/land-back/
https://www.ted.com/talks/adam_galinsky_how_to_speak_up_for_yourself
https://www.sciencealert.com/huge-study-reveals-2-vaccines-that-appear-to-reduce-dementia-risk#
https://embrace-autism.com/executive-skills-questionnaire-revised/
https://www.ted.com/podcasts/how-to-be-a-better-human/set-boundaries-and-find-peace-w-nedra-glover-tawwab-transcript
Meow. I feel puny and badly-tempered and I can't even responsibly drink about it. wtf.
Still, I haven't literally murdered anyone about it? So that's good. Gonna pat myself on the back about that.
Links post part 1
Mar. 23rd, 2026 02:52 pmMusic: Lofi Girl x The Sims - Cozy Music to Feel Ooh Be Gah on Bandcamp.
Art: Accexhibition - accessible art, and the art of accessibility.
Mental Health: Emotional Neglect: Healing From The Hidden Trauma Of What Didn't Happen - Heidi Priebe on Youtube - for those of us who worked through our trauma but still feel like something is not right in our psyche, or who never had traumatic things happen but are still a pile of neurotic behaviours.
Mental Health: Atsede Scarseth AuDHD Therapist - POV: feeling better makes you feel guilty about your privilege on TikTok.
Health: Cognitive shuffling: The micro-dreaming game that helps you sleep, because I know some of y'all have trouble falling asleep, and it's time to give that busy-mind something to do that is not ruminate on every mistake you ever made. Sleep better, y'all.
Health: DASH heart-health diet adherents have a 40% lower incidence of cognitive decline. (!!that's amazing!!)
Health: Officials ‘missed 99% of data’ before ending Covid vaccine recommendation, memos reveal. US based Covid vaccine guidance for children and pregnant people on ideology instead of evidence, critics say.
Disability Justice: Access Intimacy, Interdependence and Disability Justice
Neurodivergence: Neurodivergent Insights Glossary of ND mental health terms and neurodivergent meditation styles for folks for whom "clear your mind" is a failure from the word go. *raises own hand*
Political comic: The Gospel of Supply Side Jesus
Political activism: Stand Up For Science: Protect NSF from Political Appointees - "Complete this form to send a message to your senators urging them to oppose Jim O’Neill’s confirmation as NSF Director."
Political Activism: Open comment period - Ethylene Oxide (breast cancer causative agent) to be ruled not an air pollutant, please tell the government what you think of this proposed rule.
Art: Accexhibition - accessible art, and the art of accessibility.
Mental Health: Emotional Neglect: Healing From The Hidden Trauma Of What Didn't Happen - Heidi Priebe on Youtube - for those of us who worked through our trauma but still feel like something is not right in our psyche, or who never had traumatic things happen but are still a pile of neurotic behaviours.
Mental Health: Atsede Scarseth AuDHD Therapist - POV: feeling better makes you feel guilty about your privilege on TikTok.
Health: Cognitive shuffling: The micro-dreaming game that helps you sleep, because I know some of y'all have trouble falling asleep, and it's time to give that busy-mind something to do that is not ruminate on every mistake you ever made. Sleep better, y'all.
Health: DASH heart-health diet adherents have a 40% lower incidence of cognitive decline. (!!that's amazing!!)
Health: Officials ‘missed 99% of data’ before ending Covid vaccine recommendation, memos reveal. US based Covid vaccine guidance for children and pregnant people on ideology instead of evidence, critics say.
Disability Justice: Access Intimacy, Interdependence and Disability Justice
Access intimacy is that elusive, hard to describe feeling when someone else “gets” your access needs. The kind of eerie comfort that your disabled self feels with someone on a purely access level. Sometimes it can happen with complete strangers, disabled or not, or sometimes it can be built over years. It could also be the way your body relaxes and opens up with someone when all your access needs are being met. It is not dependent on someone having a political understanding of disability, ableism or access.
Neurodivergence: Neurodivergent Insights Glossary of ND mental health terms and neurodivergent meditation styles for folks for whom "clear your mind" is a failure from the word go. *raises own hand*
Political comic: The Gospel of Supply Side Jesus
Political activism: Stand Up For Science: Protect NSF from Political Appointees - "Complete this form to send a message to your senators urging them to oppose Jim O’Neill’s confirmation as NSF Director."
Political Activism: Open comment period - Ethylene Oxide (breast cancer causative agent) to be ruled not an air pollutant, please tell the government what you think of this proposed rule.
Building Neurodivergent Community
Mar. 15th, 2026 06:58 pmI have been learning more stuff this last year and change about how I have been managing my Discord group - and apparently I DO have social instincts! They just are for operation in neurodivergent-majority environments. So it’s time to put this stuff into words, so that I can start explicitly encouraging people’s community-oriented behaviors of: appreciation for differences; tolerance for mistakes without lacking accountability; negotiation for better treatment between individuals of differing flavors; repair of relationships when things go wrong; gentle separations without acrimonious community-breaking when repair is not possible.
And I learned this just in time for everyone to start fleeing Discord! But I’m going to take the lessons I have developed this knowledge into toward wherever we end up, and ask other people about their good ideas. So:
( long post is long )
Me:*gives myself a gold star for doing a hard thing*
And I learned this just in time for everyone to start fleeing Discord! But I’m going to take the lessons I have developed this knowledge into toward wherever we end up, and ask other people about their good ideas. So:
( long post is long )
Me:*gives myself a gold star for doing a hard thing*
Boundaries
Mar. 10th, 2026 01:15 pmSpeaking to several people over the past 30 years, but nobody likely to stumble across this journal:
Make a list of your boundaries. ( Read more... )
Make a list of your boundaries. ( Read more... )
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Mar. 4th, 2026 03:01 pmI heard the terrible news about minoanmiss last night, and I want to punch entropy in its face about it. But entropy doesn’t have a face, so we’re all kinda screwed. My heart goes out to her wonderful loved ones, and to the neighbors who her life had touched for the better. I hope she gets to donate her organs to others to live on, especially as doing so will hopefully piss off her parents (who richly deserve such) one last time.
I have been orbitally bombarding the ulcer with famotidine, Omeprazole, and trying to let go of stress once an hour. It seems to be doing some good? And I found some perfume samples on clearance from the December holidays at CVS, so I am also scent stimming intermittently.
I have a tiny, mild headache right now, so I’m studying for the jurisprudence exam and getting ready to take the test and do taxes tomorrow.
minoanmiss last night, and I want to punch entropy in its face about it. But entropy doesn’t have a face, so we’re all kinda screwed. My heart goes out to her wonderful loved ones, and to the neighbors who her life had touched for the better. I hope she gets to donate her organs to others to live on, especially as doing so will hopefully piss off her parents (who richly deserve such) one last time. I have been orbitally bombarding the ulcer with famotidine, Omeprazole, and trying to let go of stress once an hour. It seems to be doing some good? And I found some perfume samples on clearance from the December holidays at CVS, so I am also scent stimming intermittently.
I have a tiny, mild headache right now, so I’m studying for the jurisprudence exam and getting ready to take the test and do taxes tomorrow.
Are headache noonwraiths real?
Mar. 2nd, 2026 04:34 pmCurrently, I have what is quite possibly a migraine? My brain feels like my cognition is normal but pain level is bad, light is more stabby than usual, sound is nauseating. Also since I’ve been having so many headaches, lately, I have been taking too many NSAIDs and have apparently given myself another stomach ulcer. So in all I’m doing great. /s 😅😩😣
I’m nearly done with the clinical volunteer hours for school, I’ll be done with those hopefully by next Saturday. On Friday I passed the national massage exam, the MBLEx, so now I just need to get the legislative exam taken care of before my paperwork is together for getting licensed in this state. And I would be studying for legislative test right now … if I didn’t have such an awful headache.
I just took the last of the Ubrelvy and I’m about to go take an anti-emetic bc that is feeling very necessary all of a sudden. This morning I started the two weeks of Omeprazole/stomach acid reducer pills that will help heal the ulcer (eventually). I just have to eat a fair amount of bread between now and the hypothetical day when my stomach will be healed up.
Wish me strength in the fight against the headache spirits, I guess. And for the ulcer to go the fuck away.
I’m nearly done with the clinical volunteer hours for school, I’ll be done with those hopefully by next Saturday. On Friday I passed the national massage exam, the MBLEx, so now I just need to get the legislative exam taken care of before my paperwork is together for getting licensed in this state. And I would be studying for legislative test right now … if I didn’t have such an awful headache.
I just took the last of the Ubrelvy and I’m about to go take an anti-emetic bc that is feeling very necessary all of a sudden. This morning I started the two weeks of Omeprazole/stomach acid reducer pills that will help heal the ulcer (eventually). I just have to eat a fair amount of bread between now and the hypothetical day when my stomach will be healed up.
Wish me strength in the fight against the headache spirits, I guess. And for the ulcer to go the fuck away.
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Feb. 23rd, 2026 04:44 pmI take the MBLEx on Friday, but it would be so much easier to study if I didn’t have a headache …
Today has kinda sucked. Yesterday, instead of giving me two massages, a break, and then two massages, student clinic put my last three hours back to back. I went over budget on spoons and am sore, tired, and a general mess today. Also it’s cold again which adds half a point on the ten scale of my pain, so today was a 5, even before my head started hurting and I had to pop two aspirin and a cup of caffeinated tea. So my sleep tonight will be messed up, so I need to put a sleeping pill in my meds so I get real sleep as much as possible. I got shit to do tomorrow.
But despite pain etc. I got my physical, and I got blood drawn, and I called a friend, and everything else has been … sitting in a dim quiet room. I don't have enough of a brain to _knit_ right now … ugh. Hope your day is going better than mine.
Today has kinda sucked. Yesterday, instead of giving me two massages, a break, and then two massages, student clinic put my last three hours back to back. I went over budget on spoons and am sore, tired, and a general mess today. Also it’s cold again which adds half a point on the ten scale of my pain, so today was a 5, even before my head started hurting and I had to pop two aspirin and a cup of caffeinated tea. So my sleep tonight will be messed up, so I need to put a sleeping pill in my meds so I get real sleep as much as possible. I got shit to do tomorrow.
But despite pain etc. I got my physical, and I got blood drawn, and I called a friend, and everything else has been … sitting in a dim quiet room. I don't have enough of a brain to _knit_ right now … ugh. Hope your day is going better than mine.
A poll on love in friendships
Feb. 16th, 2026 02:29 pmPoll #34231 Philia: friendship-love
Open to: Registered Users, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 18
Do you love your friends?
All of your friends?
In your understanding, do MOST people love their friends?
that education meme
Feb. 14th, 2026 01:38 pmWith the caveat that I am a neuroqueer autistic person, I have Thoughts and Opinions on public school education in the 80's and 90's.
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