hanging my tomorrows on the bones of yesterday

Am I returning to the CBT posts? I guess so! Long-ass prompt ( behind the cut. )

Some interlocking concepts can become self sustaining cycles of wackness in your life. For some people, having low self esteem leads to underperforming their assigned gender. Not correctly performing your assigned gender leads to your social self being assigned the abject identity (a monstrous identity based on notions of straightness and normativity). And being called names and disrespected as the holder of the abject identity leads to distrusting your self concept which causes you to rely more heavily on the judgment of others, thus reinforcing the negative self esteem. Whether you rely on other people for your self esteem and concept of yourself is called your locus of identity, and not a lot of work has been done to see how malleable it is in adults. But we're going to try to hack it anyway, ( dammit! )