Therapy-adjacent post

[flamingsword]

Self-care today: read poetry, knee-elbow touches and spider-crawls, and taking to rens_sanctuary.

I pissed off a friend this morning, and I am not sure how, and that’s always a lovely feeling, right? /s And one of the people I want to complain to and process with is being annoyingly still dead. Goddamnit, Bat. Get your ass back here and haunt me like a real ghost, so I don’t look like a mad person with all this talking to myself.

*sighs forever*

Do you ever want to like, cosplay as your dead friends? I want to put on Bat’s amazingly ditzy Karen-sona who needs to speak to your manager and call Visa about Steam. I just. Do you ever want to like wander around a grocery store being a goofball, swordfighting with found objects, and leaving “For Rectal Use Only” stickers on things? Just occasionally let the part of you that that one person brought out back into the world?

Right now I want the world to miss Bat the way I do, even though that’s 1., not possible; B., seriously petty and fucked up; and on the third hand, not everyone even has a blog to complain and emotionally process on. Get those feelings on the page where you can process that shit, I say.

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[genderjumper]

[hugs]

I keep a folder of slides marked "espers" (after the summon creatures in FF6) and like to think of it as my way of channeling them. Some of them are intellectuals or creatives, but some are just people I adore and miss. So when my slideshow comes up (screen saver), I can look through them and think about whose energy I want to summon this day.

[minoanmiss]

When a person's absence fills one's whole sky it can feel incongruous that other people don't notice that weather.

*hugs you*

In Memory of Bat

[nyyki]

(Bat wasn't a person in my life except as for how yours was affected, but that's still important to me)

Someone gone Forever
Echoes still ringing, singing
Person as archive