19. List recent accomplishments

[flamingsword]

I rolled the die and got 19, so it’s time to acknowledge the stuff I have done lately and make myself be proud of me. When I was a kid, my reward for accomplishing things was mostly reprieve from being nagged about them and sometimes sarcastic praise from my grandmother for doing things she thought were easy but were hard for me, like cleaning a room. I hear other people sometimes got ice cream for a job well done, but such things were never about me, only about having enough money for a short while to pay off bills and have a little extra for luxuries. There may be a reason why my metrics for luxury and money and pride are a little … skewed. Let’s go with skewed.

• I helped numb3r_5ev3n move
• I helped rubyredrose sort through emotionally charged pictures and items without getting lost in nostalgia or having a rough time of it
• I have stuck with doing two 90 minute massages each workday even though it’s still making me tired
• I’ve been doing weekly calls with nyyki for at least three years. She’s not difficult but it is effort to talk on the phone, and I did it so it counts
• I sorted through my closet and shelves and donated three bags of clothes, two and a half boxes of craft supplies, a box of books, and a bag of random items like lapdesks and candles and such
• I sent some scent oils and some melt and pour soaps to Bats former roomie.
• I gave a book on Gnomes to a coworker with kids who are learning to read. She is obsessed with it right now, and it’s adorable. 🥰
• I finished the Disinebriation of Hathor perfume and it came out so good, y’all! It starts fruity and spicy, almost flirty, moves through spices and incense in the drydown, and finishes with the barest lingering cinnamon musk. I can’t wait to smell it on its intended victim. 😈
• I am several steps closer to figuring out what I want from my life, what it will cost me and those around me, and what will get me to a happier place in my life and my selfhood.
• I am less than 20 rows from being done with the body of the hooded duster. (Then I do the front edging, the pockets, fit the sleeves, and sew the buttons in with alternating soft and rough threads to thread-mark which buttons go through which holes, since it’s not for a sighted person. Hopefully all of that gets done before the end of October. I’m so excited to see the finished product!)

So yeah, I have been doing stuff lately and I’m proud of me for it.

Comments

[lokifan]

V impressed! And aw the gnomes book thing is so cute.

[flamingsword]

It is definitely cute! And I’m not sure what to do with other people being impressed by my accomplishments? Nor, for that matter, what to do with my own pride in myself. Is there a way to reinvest that complicated-but-mostly-positive feeling into doing stuff that is more precise at generating more good feelings?

But thank you, either way!