reading cards has me rattled

[flamingsword]

so last night I read some cards for myself, and it has me spooked. Because I asked about what is going on, and I got the 8 of swords (being trapped, negative experiences) as the card that represents me, the 3 of swords (heartbreak) in the space representing hopes and fears, and THE TOWER as my current problems. And if you're saying to yourself, "isn't The Tower the card that represents destruction, revelation, and cataclysm?", then yeah, it is.

I desperately need to meditate, but I'm so tired that I can't get any kind of clarity on this right now. Time to go put my bug-out bag/shelf together, I guess.

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[flamingsword]

The 8 of swords is the bound person trapped inside a ring of swords stuck into the ground in Rider-Waite, and is the Crystal Gem known as Pearl slumped to the ground in despair inside a ring of her own swords in this deck.

Reading follows:
Querent- 8 Swords - trapped, negativity
Cross - the Tower - destruction, revelation
Crown - king of wands - self- respect, adulting
Beneath - page of cups - creativity, maturity
Behind - 8 wands - rapid change, movement
Before - knight of wands - passion, adventure
1 my influence - 8 of pentacles - skill-building
2 others influence - the Magician - resourcefulness, inspiration
3 hopes and fears - 3 of swords - heartbreak
4 eventual outcome of this path - 7 of swords - deception, defection, freedom

On the Steven Universe Future Vision Gem Tarot.

[nyyki]

We used different terms and interpretations for the card positions -- heart (the question itself), cross (what's in the way), feet (far past), right hand (recent past), head (near future), left hand (far future, then up the staff your relation to the question, source of power, pitfalls or possibilities for strength, then the current outcome.

It's been a while since I used a Celtic Cross -- I prefer a reading style called the Pent of Pents, which I can teach you -- it's both easier to read and also far easier to see the relationships between the cards.