Thus goes every one to the world but I, and I am sunburnt;

[flamingsword]

I thought I had managed to get the sunblock all the way to the upper hem of my tank top, but I was not even close. 🥵 It was hot, but I didn’t sweat off the sunblock on the rest of me, at least, so it’s just a stripe a couple inches wide that is uncomfortable right now. I made a salve of Manuka honey, Voltaren gel, rosemary CO2 extract and eye-drops for holding down the redness of the burn. Plus I took my prescription anti-inflammatory, and took a lukewarm bath. So hopefully it fades quickly? I just have to not scratch at it despite the prickly itchiness of my softest shirt. 😑

Feelings stuff for the day:

Happy
• We got so much done at the Bat storage unit! If tomorrow weren’t the last day we’ll have access to it, I think it could have been gotten done in another week or two.
• I got lots of hugs from D, and they put sunblock on the strip of my back that was turning pink before the burn got bad.
• I ate a beignet. It was delicious.

Sad
• Bat is still gone and I am about to have to do some more grieving once their stuff is as taken care of as we can make it. I told myself I could fall apart a little after the crisis was over, and it’s about to be over.
• still ethnic cleansing in Gaza, still arrested peaceful protesters for Gaza, still global warming.
• realizing that Ghost and I need to work on our relationship in a couple different directions, but I don’t think he’s likely to do it. 😑

Surprised
• I made a playlist of music for the BatShitCrazy storage unit party which I will be hosting tomorrow for the people coming out to help us disburse the final stuff. Some things are surprising, like Bat’s love of early Manson, Paul Simon, and The Doors. Cool, but surprising.

Angry
• I got myself sunburned which is aggravating
• still mad that my friend died of an accidental overdose bc poor people can’t get fucking adequate medical care in Texas.
• mad at Bat for not taking his year of weight loss into account when dosing up on sedatives.

Fearful
• Having friends means I have so many more people to lose, now. 😭
• Afraid of being largely useless tomorrow if the sunburn is worse than I think it is.


I don’t think I can do all the stuff Saturday that I want to, more’s the pity. I’ll have to plot it all out on a timeline with projected spoon costs.

I will post pics of my sunburn tomorrow. Luck to all of us, and may everyone who want it have a good nights rest. 🍀😴💜

Comments

[sabotabby]

*hugs hugs hugs*

[flamingsword]

*hugs and again-hugs*

[ex_flameandsong751]

Netanyahu is a shande and a chillul Hashem and there are no words strong enough for how much I despise him. Also, while I have concerns over the antisemitic nature of some of the protests [I'm not talking about legitimate criticism of Israel and basic support for Gazans, there's a difference between that and antisemitism, I'm talking about stuff like celebrating Hamas's attack on October 7th or calling Jews pigs and so on], I also was horrified by the cops being sent in to the protests, like WTF. My take on what's happening over there is pretty nuanced, I'm pro-2SS and deplore the dehumanization of either side, and I feel like a lot of the current discourse isn't helping especially when it comes from Americans who live on colonized land, but again, I wasn't thrilled with hearing about the arrests, that is insane.

I'm sorry about what happened with Bat. That's really heartbreaking. Also I hope the sunburn heals up soon.

[flamingsword]

Netanyahu is, as the prophets have rightly said, a fucker. But you don't have to justify your people to me. You can be an imperfect person without that being a referendum on all of Judaism. That is insane, though, that the US are arresting nonviolent demonstrators in the name of *checks notes* continuing to sell offensive weapons to Israel. *unimpressed face*

I hope you are having a good Passover.

[ex_flameandsong751]

I pretty much agree with Bernie Sanders re: we need to stop giving Netanyahu money. And thank you for understanding. As you're probably aware, antisemitism has gone WAY UP since October 7th because too many people can't separate Bibi/Likud from the Israeli people or diaspora Jews. I had to take my Magen David off for recent dental work because I was afraid of someone starting shit at the office, which made me feel like a coward [I was still wearing a tichel, but that was partly to disguise my short hair and avoid queerphobic harassment out here in MAGA country; I wear a tichel when I need to not communicate I'm FTM, and a kippah when it's OK to be myself].

Passover ended on the 30th and it was basically non-stop stress because of dental problems but I got one major procedure done, and I have one less-bad-but-still-major procedure to go, then some fillings before I bump down to perio maintenance in a few months. My mouth is already feeling a fuckload better apart from some soreness after the big thing. Brought my mouth out of Egypt 😂 Thank you for the well wishes.

[silk_dragon_zen]

I thought I had managed to get the sunblock all the way to the upper hem of my tank top, but I was not even close. [...]

Well no wonder we were so itchy last night! Just saw the pics you posted on Discord today and holy shit *the exact same spot across the mid-upper back*! I was going "what on earth are we allergic too???" ... and then the itchiness eventually went away (probably after Ghost put the salve on your back). I think this may be the first time (that we know of) where we've seemed to be tuning into someone else's physical condition.

— Sage