on doing All The Things, and the Steven Universe Tarot

[flamingsword]

I got dressed for the first time in 4 days because it was finally warm enough for my body to un-stiffen enough to do so. Also, y'all, I had shit to do today. Things the Heidi accomplished today:

drove to pick up a present for the nyyki since her birthyday is soonish

drove to the far side of Dallas to deliver presents and hang for a bit before I:

drove to one medical complex for that rheumatology visit. It was not great news, but it was inconclusive until bloodwork is done so I:

drove to another hospital that had the right kind of phlebotomy lab and got four large vials of blood drawn. Then I needed to grab lunch to combat low blood volume and did so, which we're not even going to make a separate bullet point bc this list is not half done

I drove home, this time in traffic. Ugh.

I fielded a phone call from Mom where she managed to not misgender me once! Progress? (Maybe!)

I walked to check the mail. (my perfume sample for the month came, Commodity's Gold scent is woodsy and wonderful.)

I ordered groceries because we needed stuff

I picked up groceries, drove through the pharmacy line which took forever and speaking of things taking forever, this is a fuckton of stuff for my normally tired self, right? And it was A Lot.

I brought groceries in, called out for Ghost to come help me, but I think it is time to admit that Ghost's hearing maybe isn't what it used to be, because he did not hear me at all.

in all of this I managed to take over 5k steps, which is about three times my average

friends and I rearranged the discord-friend-date to watch the last of Steven Universe Future, which was fine, as I was going to be a zombie for it anyway.

And then I blogged about all of the above, because I feel accomplished if entirely drained. Wish me luck on the blood tests (notlupusnotlupusnotlupus).

In other news, I may start doing card reading again, now that I have the pocket-sized Steven Universe deck, to see how much information I can pump out of my unconscious mind. But right now I need to get used to these cards, so here's a practice reading for myself.

Querent - Queen of Swords - Who I am right now is having attained some but not all mastery of conflict. This applies to a bunch of areas of my life, but this is the "you should do therapy about that" deck, like the Osho Zen deck is the "you should meditate about that" deck. So I'm going to assume it's talking about the emotional growth that I'm trying to do.
Cover - The Star - Where I am right now is floating in myself, reconnecting with my purpose. Okay, yes.
Cross - The Magician - The problem I'm having is that I think I'm good at stuff because I've done it before, but a lot of those skills are now rusty with disuse and I don't always know which ones.
Crown - Two of Swords - My highest attainable good in this situation is balance, but also avoidance?
Beneath - Ace of Wands - Helping me in this is the incarnation of Amethyst, fire, and adventure.
Behind - Four of Wands - In the recent past is having fun with friends, and a form of avoidance.
Before - Three of Wands - In the near future there will be progress, and perhaps travel.
1 - The Devil - My internal viewpoint is one of being or feeling trapped in a fucked up situation or of being the fucked up situation. Ouch? Accurate. (I love that Onion is the Devil? Like how perfect is that?)
2 - King of Swords - How this appears to others is as a form of Mastery over conflict, that I am coming from the truth of myself
3 - The Chariot - Hopes and fears says that I want control and willpower, but also that I'm afraid of it. Which scans.
4 - The Tower - The ultimate outcome is one of a radical restructuring or ... possible doom.

I'm hoping for not doom.

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[princessofgeeks]

I LOVE captain's log as a tag. Wish I'd thought of it! :D