"morning" pages (more like evening pages, amirite?) December 4th

[flamingsword]

Ongoing evidence log:
I did friend some new people and experienced connection and vibing with them which supports the healthy belief that I am not incompetent at peopleing.

Thoughts/feelings awareness log:
I felt connected (?) or whatever is the opposite of lonely, because I thought that I get to have a friend-gathering this week.
I felt aggravated because I thought ketamine assisted psychotherapy would be easier to research than this.
I felt pain because I thought that I could get away with eating a slightly higher ratio of carbs and sugars for a week, and no, not really.
I felt enlightened because I listened to a Brene Brown podcast on the cartography of emotions, and it explained some stuff about misidentifying emotions.
I felt kinda derpy and incompetent at feelings because I thought that I should have realized that misidentifying emotions was a thing that happens to people, especially ones who are not really well versed at emotions.

It is International Lolita Day, and I kinda want to go out in full gear, but I don't have the spoons to get dressed and THEN do stuff.

Comments

[flamingsword]

https://covid.cdc.gov/covid-data-tracker/

https://getpocket.com/explore/item/a-power-law-keeps-the-brain-s-perceptions-balanced?utm_source=pocket-newtab

https://player.fm/series/the-deprogram/the-deprogram-episode-4-the-limits-of-capitalism

https://www.fightbacknews.org/2021/12/3/interview-frank-chapman-about-his-new-book-marxist-leninist-perspectives-black-liberation-

[ex_flameandsong751]

You are not incompetent at peopleing! We vibe!

Ketamine assisted psychotherapy is a pain in the ASS to research.

[flamingsword]

See, vibing with ADHD / OCD / Autistic folks is easy enough … when you’re on the spectrum yourself. It takes that extra +5 difficulty modifier off all your Charisma rolls. It’s why nerds make good friends to other nerds, and jocks to other jocks - our brains work in some similar ways that make us more understandable to one another. People assume that autistic folks are bad at peopleing and social skills in general. They don’t realize that NT folks are equally bad at peopleing with autists, and that autists are just fine socially with each other. But it is still a persistent belief I am trying to update that I am bad at being a person.

And yeah, there’s a few places in Dallas that do KAP, but one of them has obviously done some search engine optimization for both Google AND DuckDuckGo, so it is harder to find out stuff about their competitors. Maybe I will search with some older engines and see what turns up.