depression

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I have that anxiety right now that says that nothing I can do is not going to be some kind of fuck-up, and that I should just not see people for a while. That if I see people while I am this small, vulnerable thing with no social aptitude, that I will lose the friends I still have. I may have to get off the internet for a while, maybe go do something that I have no trauma around or emotional investment in being good at.