Are you hot? I don't care.
Jan. 1st, 2019 11:38 amA few months ago I resolved to take human attractiveness out of the things I notice or think about. I want to not judge people based on how many spoons and dollars they have to spend to fit into a classist, racist ideal. And the cool thing about my brain is that I can do that.
I can starve pathways of reinforcement until they fail to dominate my narratives. I can let them atrophy until I forget what doing that and feeling that were like. Yay for autism and trauma as superpowers!
I don't feel like I receive any value from feeling attraction to people; I don't feel like it's something I need to know about myself or other people; it's not useful information. It's an old heuristic from childhood that gets in the way of seeing people more than it tells me about them. So I'm just gonna dumpster it. See how that goes and reevaluate in another six months or so.
If you think I am making a terrible mistake, feel free to tell me in comments.
I can starve pathways of reinforcement until they fail to dominate my narratives. I can let them atrophy until I forget what doing that and feeling that were like. Yay for autism and trauma as superpowers!
I don't feel like I receive any value from feeling attraction to people; I don't feel like it's something I need to know about myself or other people; it's not useful information. It's an old heuristic from childhood that gets in the way of seeing people more than it tells me about them. So I'm just gonna dumpster it. See how that goes and reevaluate in another six months or so.
If you think I am making a terrible mistake, feel free to tell me in comments.