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May. 4th, 2005 11:16 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
flamingswordHey, Mac. Sorry about being so moody, but I was so sure they were going to call. I did well at both interviews, and I have good availability. I'm nice, I have clients I'm bringing with me, why haven't they called me and said I have the job? Because I haven't passed the state boards? I told them that wouldn't be a problem, and it won't. Because I don't have RMT accident insurance? I can get that.
They WILL call. See, Mac? This is me believing in myself. Because I know I'm good at this. And I'm confident that now that I'm ready, a good employer will show up and we'll click, and together we'll work our asses off happily ever after.
Enough about me. I feel like furniture today. Let's focus on things outside the immediate self. My Aunt (the one who lives with my mom, whose house I'm at now) just broke up with her boyfriend of almost two years. It's rougher on her than she's letting on. How I know: the ghost. This house has something that opens the door to her room (only my aunts room, though) and makes the toaster springs twang. And it only does this when I'm at the other end of the house (why won't ghosts come near me?) and it only does it when her emotions start spilling over onto her environment. So she's probably lonely and hurt more than the annoyed she's pretending to be.
My mom is still dating Mike, her ex husband (though thankfully not my father) and that relationship is so on-again off-again it could double as a turn signal. My mom knows this, which is the weird part. She's fully conscious of the cyclic nature and chooses to continue with what she's familiar with rather than seek a better partner with a new relationship dynamic. She gives no reason for this, but I'm sure she has one, even if it is as stupid a reason as hopelessness.
They WILL call. See, Mac? This is me believing in myself. Because I know I'm good at this. And I'm confident that now that I'm ready, a good employer will show up and we'll click, and together we'll work our asses off happily ever after.
Enough about me. I feel like furniture today. Let's focus on things outside the immediate self. My Aunt (the one who lives with my mom, whose house I'm at now) just broke up with her boyfriend of almost two years. It's rougher on her than she's letting on. How I know: the ghost. This house has something that opens the door to her room (only my aunts room, though) and makes the toaster springs twang. And it only does this when I'm at the other end of the house (why won't ghosts come near me?) and it only does it when her emotions start spilling over onto her environment. So she's probably lonely and hurt more than the annoyed she's pretending to be.
My mom is still dating Mike, her ex husband (though thankfully not my father) and that relationship is so on-again off-again it could double as a turn signal. My mom knows this, which is the weird part. She's fully conscious of the cyclic nature and chooses to continue with what she's familiar with rather than seek a better partner with a new relationship dynamic. She gives no reason for this, but I'm sure she has one, even if it is as stupid a reason as hopelessness.