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Sterling silver guillotine pendant? I want it.

I have collected another fannish friend for Snowflake, as reaching out to new people was one of the challenges. Hi

mific !

Y’know, I first found fan fiction by stumbling onto an X-Men slash webring in ~2003, while googling Gambit costumes. The rest has been a wild ride through fandoms and fannish friends, and getting sucked into fandoms before I’ve even seen the canon they come from. It has been so much FUN! If you are part of fandom, even someone who passively enjoys it, you are making my life better by being one less person out there being a jerk about my right to love things and have enthusiasm. So thank you for that.

In other news ( “medical )

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Anyway, I am mostly better now, but since I have been to the hospital, I am in quarantine for several days just in case I picked up anything while there.

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I am just going to whine forever bc polyamory is haaaaard. Cut for ( relationship whinging and health woes. )
In other news, I am trying to platonically reconnect with someone I was in love with forever ago, now that I no longer fear the life-ruining crush aspect of our friendship. There was a whole 4-way unrequited crush circle from high school and into college, it was really quite a shitshow. Hopefully we can at least be friendly acquaintances. I still miss that dude. People weirder than me are more precious than rubies, and more rare.

( Thinking biases that cause us to blame ourselves. )

My sedimentation rate is normal, according to the recent blood tests, and I am negative for antinuclear antibodies and rheumatoid factor. But my C Reactive protein is testing higher than it should be. 😣

Since there is now a possibility that I could have something like lupus or another inflammatory condition, I have started on the dietary restrictions recommended for lupus. Which sucks, because it is a sugar-free diet with no fried foods and no *garlic*. I'm gonna be bitchy about this for a while. Garlic is apparently an immune system activator? Which makes it healthy for people who don't have an autoimmune condition, but I am not one of those people. Boo.

I went off of the gabapentin for a few days, and my anxiety did not change much but my pain did and I immediately had a migraine, so apparently that is working fine. But yesterday was the first day in a long time when I haven't felt like my life was a comedy of errors written by a sadist, and today I feel back to my previous version of normal, so the dietary changes are working ... dammit. Which means I have to keep them.

Time to invest in some sugar free chocolate, I guess.

I am back in bed until 4 pm because I am trying to fight off a throat infection because when I do too much for too long, my immune system tanks and things stop healing correctly. Everything about my body gets a little off. I had my period for an hour yesterday and then it stopped. Today my throat is sore and my glands are swollen. I've been snacking on raw cabbage for a few days so the ulcer is going away. I got a massage yesterday to help deal with the body stress. I'm drinking a crapton of throat soothing herb tea and lying in bed with all of the blankets on to sweat this out. It will get fixed, all of it, but it makes me irritable/discouraged when I can't do the things I want because my body can't live up to the number of things to accomplish that my brain has ideas for.

It occurs to me that even if I had a sponsor or trust fund or something that would let me camp out at an Occupy and still pay my bills, I would not be able to do so. As I get older the photophobia (painful sensitivity to light) is getting worse. With the goggles on I can deal with maybe two hours of sun on a good day, half an hour on a bad one before my thoughts get nonlinear and I lose words. If I don't get out of the sun shortly after that i could give myself a migraine. Every migraine incrementally increases your risk of stroke. I don't want to end up like my cousin Julie. It feels selfish to put my desire for physical safety over my desire for actions toward the freedom of our country. I am stressed out.

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What to do? I want two things that apparently aren't working together very well, and I need to find some way to make them both workable. Still coming up with options, but may have to start taking internet breaks.

Can I complain a minute? It takes half of fucking forever to get around the house, I can only move boxes by pushing them in front of me with crutches, and I'm having to get ready for work half an hour early because it's going to take that long just to be on time.

Word to the wise: don't wrestle staircases singlehanded. They will win.

Last night while cleaning out the old place, I missed a step, fell on my ankle, injured myself, called

gonner221, was taken to the hospital, was x-rayed, was drugged and taught how to walk on crutches (in that order), and was taken home by my mother.

If you're thinking, "But Heidi, isn't this the worst possible time all year to be seriously injured/incapacitated?" Then you get a gold star.

This year: kill it. Kill it with fire.

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hanging my tomorrows on the bones of yesterday

written on the subway walls and tenement halls

Entries tagged with ways i have injured myself

Socialist jewelry, fandom history, new pal

TW for Emetophobia

All of the ugh.

CBT homework: Blaming Ourselves for Trauma - reading

Garlic, C Reactive Protein, and My Brand New Diet (I guess)

ill health and protest

I want to keep up with Occupy, but I'm getting an ulcer

Gravity, thou art a heartless bitch.

Failsome Person Blues

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