lots of random stuff
Jul. 18th, 2007 01:45 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
flamingswordI'm making icons again today (Coupling), and being dissatisfied with things. That's sort of nice actually. I've been trying to be content with my job and not being in classes, and I had fogotten how much my subconscious hates complacency. It's probably not that big a betrayal to other people, but my mind says that I'm supposed to be restless. I'm supposed to be at odds with injustice, ignorance, and personal imperfections until I conquer and destroy them. Is it possible to have a type A id?
If I have not already pimped Aztec-style chocolate to you, I apologize. I should have, as it's simple to make and brain-tingly delicious. You take chocolate, milk or dark, and to every bar of it you add 1 tsp. ginger, 1 tsp. red pepper, 2 tsp. cinnamon, and 2 TBSP of water. Warm, mix, re-cool, & eat. It makes chocolate that is spicy, rich, exciting and better for you than plain chocolate. It also helps with cramps. Truly, it is mystical.
My sinuses are giving me grief, but if I take stuff for it it'll knock me out. Yarg.
I'm going out of town Friday to spend the weekend with my mom for her birthday. This is her 50th, I think. *blinks* Wow.
I've been thinking lately about race, and why the majority of my friends are white. I have the unfortunate colorblind condition where it doesn't occur to me that someone is from a different subculture than I am and won't follow all my logic twists until they ask me what the hell I'm nattering on about. I was raised in gangland, so I was once part of those cultures, but I forget and run on autopilot sometimes. One of my coworkers is black, one hispanic, and two were raised sheltered christians. None of them get my jokes, and the hispanic lady is distant and creeped out that I'm pagan. I think that my weird factor may be part of the reason I have only a few non-white friends. People of other races are working hard to fit into the aryan-normative cultural mainstream, fighting for a level foundation to build their lives on. I was never on any of the level places, and having a friend like me would blow any cover they tried to have in re: normalcy. Only the ones who are never going to get a fair shake in life, and know that, will put up with my obnoxious hyperactivity.
I want caffeine. :(
If I have not already pimped Aztec-style chocolate to you, I apologize. I should have, as it's simple to make and brain-tingly delicious. You take chocolate, milk or dark, and to every bar of it you add 1 tsp. ginger, 1 tsp. red pepper, 2 tsp. cinnamon, and 2 TBSP of water. Warm, mix, re-cool, & eat. It makes chocolate that is spicy, rich, exciting and better for you than plain chocolate. It also helps with cramps. Truly, it is mystical.
My sinuses are giving me grief, but if I take stuff for it it'll knock me out. Yarg.
I'm going out of town Friday to spend the weekend with my mom for her birthday. This is her 50th, I think. *blinks* Wow.
I've been thinking lately about race, and why the majority of my friends are white. I have the unfortunate colorblind condition where it doesn't occur to me that someone is from a different subculture than I am and won't follow all my logic twists until they ask me what the hell I'm nattering on about. I was raised in gangland, so I was once part of those cultures, but I forget and run on autopilot sometimes. One of my coworkers is black, one hispanic, and two were raised sheltered christians. None of them get my jokes, and the hispanic lady is distant and creeped out that I'm pagan. I think that my weird factor may be part of the reason I have only a few non-white friends. People of other races are working hard to fit into the aryan-normative cultural mainstream, fighting for a level foundation to build their lives on. I was never on any of the level places, and having a friend like me would blow any cover they tried to have in re: normalcy. Only the ones who are never going to get a fair shake in life, and know that, will put up with my obnoxious hyperactivity.
I want caffeine. :(