links and jealousy

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http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Category:Narratology
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Category:Game_theory
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Category:Artificial_intelligence
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Category:Evolutionary_biology


That's the itinerary for study for February.

I was talking to my sister today about our various relationship issues. I live 1,000 miles from her and she's my half-sister, but we're still pretty alike, for all of that. Amid the babble I found a gleaming gem springing fully polished from my mouth.

"Jealousy is worthless. I'm not sure when I learned it, but I know that if people are going to leave me, they're going to leave. It isn't about other people, they have nothing to do with it. It's not comparative. Either we go together or we don't and nobody can make us work or not work out. You can't compete for love like that because love isn't a thing that you get to judge and choose for, the nature of the thing itself defies being competed for."

What's the use of jealousy in that? I understand envy, of wanting something you haven't got. I understand possessiveness (if a bit differently from most people's understanding) and it has uses, too. But expecting to compete and dislike people because they have things you want and then trying to get everything you want in life is like walking around with an invitation for everyone to hate you because you have something you're not sharing. And that sounds tiresome and like a level of bother I couldn't put up with.