flamingsword | *facepalms forever* (Reply)

“Head MRI negative.

Dr. _____”

I just love the new apps that let your doctor’s office be a terse bastard at you virtually as well as in person. Like, am I negative for having a sinus infection in the bone? Am I negative for Chiari malformation? Am I negative for having a head? We may never know.

But I am glad that the headaches have been getting steadily better, and that I can smell slightly better also, which I hadn’t even noticed losing a bit of. In fact, it’s after 5 and I don’t have a headache right now - which is freaking awesome, and is huge progress.

I have been doing journaling in the Therapets Journal that a friend got me for Yule, because it reminds me to be gentle with myself while I’m working at making myself mentally healthier. I have the habit of looking at how far I have to go to get to ultimate!Heidi instead of how far I’ve come or what I’ve survived. A visible-on-page reminder that who I am now is a good me to be? That my anxiety and depression lie? That I will make it through this with care and concern more easily than with self-blame? It makes a huge difference.

One of the things I have decided is that instead of trying to do morning pages for my anti-alexithymia project where I have to remember yesterdays feelings (hard), I’m going to do nightly recollections and the thought-naming exercise meditation at the end of the day (much easier).