Not (quite) a Therapy Post!
Jan. 3rd, 2020 08:15 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
flamingswordToday is not great because period. Yesterday was not great because nausea and intestinal complaints. This entire frakking week was not great because of dizziness, insomnia, and orthostatic hypotension with fun heart palpitations after. I thought the salt/electrolyte tablets were supposed to make that better, not frakking worse.
... Why am I fake-cussing?
Fuck everything. I have what may be an allergic reaction ,or might be cancer on my leg. Who even knows anymore with my body. And if the new PCP would just CALL ME BACK ... :sigh:
In other news, I just changed insurance, so I get to do eleventy million kinds of twattery getting pharmacies arranged and primary care and autopay and finding a new neurologist and calling all of our doctors and updating insurance info, and and and. I just want to buy lolita stuff and read fluffy curtainfic and sleep. Is that too much to ask?
Anyway. The holidays were good, even if I am never going off the diet for three days ever again. The first Codecademy lesson went okay, my friends are mostly doing alright, and there is a lolita meetup the 12th that I will be at in a ridiculous dress. I will be sure to take pics. ;)
TheLaws Guidelines of Therapy
0. Pay attention.
1. I feel like I-Statements are key.
2. Boundaries: find them; have them; respect them.
3. You have to feel the feeling before you can be rid of it.
4. People are different. Comparing them is unhelpful.
9. Talk if you can, cry if you can't.
5. If you are lying to your therapist, then you are paying money to not receive informed care, which is unhelpful.
6. Lean into the uncomfortable. That resistance is usually what your points of real difficulty are hiding behind.
7. You are allowed to be weird as long as you are considerate about it.
8. Do the work at your own pace, but do it all the same. Your therapist cannot reach inside your head to fix things, nor would you really want them to.
10. Sometimes things get out of order. It will get sorted out. Trust the process.
11. It takes time. You did not get into this mess in a few weeks, and a few weeks are not going to get you out of them.
... Why am I fake-cussing?
Fuck everything. I have what may be an allergic reaction ,or might be cancer on my leg. Who even knows anymore with my body. And if the new PCP would just CALL ME BACK ... :sigh:
In other news, I just changed insurance, so I get to do eleventy million kinds of twattery getting pharmacies arranged and primary care and autopay and finding a new neurologist and calling all of our doctors and updating insurance info, and and and. I just want to buy lolita stuff and read fluffy curtainfic and sleep. Is that too much to ask?
Anyway. The holidays were good, even if I am never going off the diet for three days ever again. The first Codecademy lesson went okay, my friends are mostly doing alright, and there is a lolita meetup the 12th that I will be at in a ridiculous dress. I will be sure to take pics. ;)
The
0. Pay attention.
1. I feel like I-Statements are key.
2. Boundaries: find them; have them; respect them.
3. You have to feel the feeling before you can be rid of it.
4. People are different. Comparing them is unhelpful.
9. Talk if you can, cry if you can't.
5. If you are lying to your therapist, then you are paying money to not receive informed care, which is unhelpful.
6. Lean into the uncomfortable. That resistance is usually what your points of real difficulty are hiding behind.
7. You are allowed to be weird as long as you are considerate about it.
8. Do the work at your own pace, but do it all the same. Your therapist cannot reach inside your head to fix things, nor would you really want them to.
10. Sometimes things get out of order. It will get sorted out. Trust the process.
11. It takes time. You did not get into this mess in a few weeks, and a few weeks are not going to get you out of them.