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I don't have Covid, but I did have a sinus infection that was giving me some of the symptoms. *yikes-face* Thankfully, that has mostly cleared up.
A friend has suggested that I might want to dig into what is behind the current abandonment issue before I try to repair this friendship. So I have gone with the "Let's put the friendship on pause until the holidays and see if we miss each other" plan.
Of course, rooting around in my brain to get it to stop doing an unhealthy thing sounds exhausting and painful, which of course means that I'm going to do it. Because losing friends isn't hard enough, I feel the need to jump into something punishingly difficult while I'm already going to be suffering! Might as well get all the unpleasantness over with at once, right? And yes, I am using sarcasm aimed at myself to cover for feeling vulnerable, why do you ask?
Does anybody else do this to themself?
Anyway, navel-gazing behind the ( cut. )
A friend has suggested that I might want to dig into what is behind the current abandonment issue before I try to repair this friendship. So I have gone with the "Let's put the friendship on pause until the holidays and see if we miss each other" plan.
Of course, rooting around in my brain to get it to stop doing an unhealthy thing sounds exhausting and painful, which of course means that I'm going to do it. Because losing friends isn't hard enough, I feel the need to jump into something punishingly difficult while I'm already going to be suffering! Might as well get all the unpleasantness over with at once, right? And yes, I am using sarcasm aimed at myself to cover for feeling vulnerable, why do you ask?
Does anybody else do this to themself?
Anyway, navel-gazing behind the ( cut. )