I'm back.

[flamingsword]

So my flist is at skip80? Wow. We all seem to chat a lot, huh? We must be good friends. :)

The wedding was cool, Houston was muggy, and I have plans to see the Space Center next time I'm down there, since I've never been. IknowIknowIknow, I've been to Houston how many times in my life and have never been to the one place from which my childhood dreams sprang forth? I miss being little and thinking of space and science and cosmology with wonder.

I miss wonder. How do I get that back?

Also, the seeing-myself-from-outside and personal narrative tricks firmware patches have been installed in my brainspace, and I had forgotten how socially awkward it makes me to try to figure out whether anyone is going to care about what I have to say. I just wind up taking so long trying to figure out each person's perspective that my opportunity to say anything relevant passes with me neither participating nor actively listening to whomever is talking since all computing power is busy trying to figure it out. It leaves me strangely abstracted, and actually interferes with my mojo. :(

Got any tips or tricks, flist?

Comments

[elucreh.livejournal.com]

I am useless, I'm afraid! Generally I forge on regardless and rely on other people to shut me up. It's possible this is why I'm 99% friends with people who have known me forever and know better than to listen politely when they don't care. Your way is probably better than mine, but surely there is a happy medium?

[flamingsword.livejournal.com]

No, until I made the update, that was my standard operating procedure as well. I ranted and was enthusiastic and entertaining, but now my rant is running at a trickle of its former capacity.

I feel like someone turned off my funny. :(

[raasalhayya.livejournal.com]

Wish I could help, but I still struggle daily with the mindset of "no one cares what I have to say", so I usually say nothing.

[flamingsword.livejournal.com]

I want to hear you. I care.

I will be much less likely to interrupt you (yay!), but for a while face-time conversation will be awkward, with both of us operating on the same programming. I guess we get to overcome our inclinations together. :\

[gonner221.livejournal.com]

Simple hint. If someone is voluntarily around you, then they generally are interested in what you have to say. Give them the benefit of a trial sentence, then move on from there.

[flamingsword.livejournal.com]

That was what the other brainware was doing. Now I have to replicate that with actual context sensitivity. But! I may someday be able to understand hints and subtlety! So possibly this will be a good thing.

[jslorentz.livejournal.com]

Miss wonder? I got mine back by moving back to Texas and becoming polyamorous. Since you already live here and are poly, that doesn't help much... Good question for Saturday, hmmm? Also, have you read Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance? It's one of the few books on metaphysics I've ever read, but there's great stuff about distancing from or connecting with self, technology, and society.

[jslorentz.livejournal.com]

Only tip I can offer is watch for people glancing at you. The shorter the glance, the more significant. They probably want to hear more from you.