Fixes: [4 things]
Apr. 22nd, 2010 09:44 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
flamingsword* So when we reinstalled Windoze, I forgot to redownload and install AdBlock etc. onto Firefox. So that is taken care of. Thanks for reminding me that I have friends with brains who can poke me into using mine. You rock. :D
* I think they've been putting dumb in the water here this week. I'm switching to filtered until the highly localized random attacks of stupidity at work are less evident. Yeah, I know it's probably sinus trouble from the pollen counts and the weather trying to decide how much pressure we should be under, but I'm going to err on the side of caution.
* I have decided to narrate myself more. In the quest for things that I once did to myself that I am seeking to undo and then possibly redo a different way, I have discerned that the decision to not apply contexts to myself has made it almost impossible to apply narrative structure to my experiences. Did you know that most people recall information as part of a structure? And that the most common form of information organizing is the Grecian three-act play structure? So since my memory blows goats, I will be using the corollary of this fact to use the structure to improve my recall of events in my life and my interactions with you. I want to remember.
* A long-ass time ago, in the Tina days of high school, we were doing literary criticism in G/T English and learning to correlate data from a literary text to discover subtext. Ms. Marcellus was comparing this to how you were able to tell when someone was lying or not telling you the whole story (news to me at the time) and since it was a radical new concept I did what I always do and applied it to everything. Can you guess what happened? Now that I know which contexts are implausible and ridiculous, I only share the amusing ones, but Tina got to hear them ALL at great length. And have I mentioned that I was paranoid, sort of delusional, and sometimes couldn't tell the difference between objective reality how I experienced it? I was al those things. And Tina eventually got tired of it and said something about how I should just stop trying to correlate anything having to do with myself because I always went bad places with it freaked myself out, and was basically never right. And she had a point. I kept the sorting-other-people thing so that I could gather the subtext of social situations, and that was actually probably the beginning of my social awareness. Suddenly it wasn't just a vast sea of differing individuals for me to try to relate to as individuals, it was a vast sea of interconnected individuals with all these shifting relationships to each other that would affect their relationships with me simultaneously. I think I may have freaked out at the realization that the task I had set myself was much larger than I had estimated. I started having social skills that actually let me understand what to do about that complexity the summer between junior and senior year. So for basically two years I had nothing but anxiety and frustration on the figuring-out-the-world gameplan.
* I think they've been putting dumb in the water here this week. I'm switching to filtered until the highly localized random attacks of stupidity at work are less evident. Yeah, I know it's probably sinus trouble from the pollen counts and the weather trying to decide how much pressure we should be under, but I'm going to err on the side of caution.
* I have decided to narrate myself more. In the quest for things that I once did to myself that I am seeking to undo and then possibly redo a different way, I have discerned that the decision to not apply contexts to myself has made it almost impossible to apply narrative structure to my experiences. Did you know that most people recall information as part of a structure? And that the most common form of information organizing is the Grecian three-act play structure? So since my memory blows goats, I will be using the corollary of this fact to use the structure to improve my recall of events in my life and my interactions with you. I want to remember.
* A long-ass time ago, in the Tina days of high school, we were doing literary criticism in G/T English and learning to correlate data from a literary text to discover subtext. Ms. Marcellus was comparing this to how you were able to tell when someone was lying or not telling you the whole story (news to me at the time) and since it was a radical new concept I did what I always do and applied it to everything. Can you guess what happened? Now that I know which contexts are implausible and ridiculous, I only share the amusing ones, but Tina got to hear them ALL at great length. And have I mentioned that I was paranoid, sort of delusional, and sometimes couldn't tell the difference between objective reality how I experienced it? I was al those things. And Tina eventually got tired of it and said something about how I should just stop trying to correlate anything having to do with myself because I always went bad places with it freaked myself out, and was basically never right. And she had a point. I kept the sorting-other-people thing so that I could gather the subtext of social situations, and that was actually probably the beginning of my social awareness. Suddenly it wasn't just a vast sea of differing individuals for me to try to relate to as individuals, it was a vast sea of interconnected individuals with all these shifting relationships to each other that would affect their relationships with me simultaneously. I think I may have freaked out at the realization that the task I had set myself was much larger than I had estimated. I started having social skills that actually let me understand what to do about that complexity the summer between junior and senior year. So for basically two years I had nothing but anxiety and frustration on the figuring-out-the-world gameplan.
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Date: 2010-05-01 02:25 pm (UTC)So, naturally you became polyamorous. ;)
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Date: 2010-05-02 06:59 pm (UTC)IDEK.
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