flamingsword | Forgettery and stress

This last few weeks I have a to-do list which, despite checking off a lot of big important boxes, has kept growing beyond the point of unmanageable into the realm of brain-breaking. My executive functioning has now given up the ghost on being able to remember shit, start shit, finish shit that’s been started, or self-monitor any of my mental or physical states. And all times are defaulting back to Now and Not Now, making planning shit for the future kind of fucking dicey.

So:
• I have started vomiting out my thoughts onto paper in the day planner that I haven’t used in a couple months. Lots of note-taking and using goblin.tools to break things down into steps and plans is going to happen tomorrow.
• I am checking in with my energy levels, feelings, and mental state every time one of my phone alarms goes off
• I will be asking some irl friends and family to body-double and help me stay on task the next week or two.

And I guess we’ll see how this goes? Bc my anxiety has stayed high-but-not-panic-attack-y the last few weeks (yay hydroxyzine!), and I don’t want that to turn into a mixed manic episode bc those are fucked up and dangerous. I wish us all restful sleep and weightless mental health.