[quote] As my friends, y’all know my mind on growing past and around stuff that xhurts me, and are already doing the self-appointed “job” of engaging and asking questions and prodding me to move along out of the worst part of the funk. Comforting me is nice, but not necessary. The getting me to take care of myself when nobody else can take care of me? You’re already doing it. Thank you. [/quote]
So, not sure if this might be helpful for you in this situation, but something that super helps us get it together to take care of ourselves and our body's needs is to give ourselves time to sit with the painful feelings and really *hear* them without *listening* to them. That is, without agreeing nor disagreeing with them, just sitting compassionately with them, letting our feelings be felt/be experienced, till they run their course (for the moment). This can take the form of waves of feelings for few minutes here and there — sadness, anger, etc. — to days of need for extra sleep, to an afternoon lying curled up in bed for three hours crying, to any number of other forms.
And since this is a kind of grief — the loss of the illusional relationship you thought you had with someone who turned out to be a different person than you thought he was — it might take a while. Like this might come in waves over the next few weeks, then ebb to once a day, then to once a week and so on.
Whatever form this takes, at least for us, we've found it way easier to function when our feelings get to release and run their course till the metaphorical fever breaks and then when we have a break we find we can focus way easier on whatever needs doing.
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Date: 2023-04-20 05:55 pm (UTC)So, not sure if this might be helpful for you in this situation, but something that super helps us get it together to take care of ourselves and our body's needs is to give ourselves time to sit with the painful feelings and really *hear* them without *listening* to them. That is, without agreeing nor disagreeing with them, just sitting compassionately with them, letting our feelings be felt/be experienced, till they run their course (for the moment). This can take the form of waves of feelings for few minutes here and there — sadness, anger, etc. — to days of need for extra sleep, to an afternoon lying curled up in bed for three hours crying, to any number of other forms.
And since this is a kind of grief — the loss of the illusional relationship you thought you had with someone who turned out to be a different person than you thought he was — it might take a while. Like this might come in waves over the next few weeks, then ebb to once a day, then to once a week and so on.
Whatever form this takes, at least for us, we've found it way easier to function when our feelings get to release and run their course till the metaphorical fever breaks and then when we have a break we find we can focus way easier on whatever needs doing.
— Dor