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flamingswordHappy Year of the Rabbit and Cat to those who celebrate!
I am now about 1 day shy of being over the flu, i think, which is good, because I got Ghost sick so I will need to be well enough to take care of him. /o\. I’ve been sleeping on the couch since Thursday trying to keep him safe, damn it. I will not be well enough to go to the Super H Mart in time to get Lunar New Years foods which I probably should not have anyway. 😕 Oh well. I will go and get foods for my people, soon, and reschedule all the things that got put aside for this illness. But at least it wasn’t freaking Covid.
Because if my picking up a bug on the outing she insisted on, I think Mom will be okay with not asking me to go out in public for a long while after this. So that’s one silver lining. And we found out at the King Spa that my stepdad might be in the early stages of mental decline? Which is … not good, but we’re going to hop on that soon and see about getting him medicine and lifestyle changes for that. Mom had been thinking that he was just having trouble hearing her since he didn’t have his hearing aids in, but … multiple things don’t add up about how that day went with him. Meow.
Things I figured out during yesterday’s Day of Mourning: apparently I’m not holding much sadness about estrangement from my Dad, and am having WAY MORE sadness about body stuff since it is doing new things. I’m still sad about there being new limits I will have to learn to live inside of, so there is stuff about it that hasn’t been processed yet. Or maybe I’m just waiting for my fears to be confirmed. 😭 Autoimmune disorders are not Pokémon, and I don’t wanna catch ‘em all.
I am going to be so busy the rest of this winter but I am not worrying about that, bc we are practicing self care. By which I mean, after January is over I’m staying off of Facebook, tumblr, Twitter, and basically all social media but DW and my personal Discord server for a month. And I may need to fly out to Missouri to help a friend move this spring sometime? But that has not been determined yet.
The intermittent torticollis in my neck is acting up again, so I get this weird feeling, my body freezes for half a second and then my head snaps to the left. It hurts a little and makes me look possessed, kinda. I should look it up and see if medical science knows what causes that now. *consults the Ducks* oh, probably from injury, then. Hmm. No way of telling which one or what to do about it.
Like so much in my life at the moment, but you know what? I’mma deal. We got this.
I am now about 1 day shy of being over the flu, i think, which is good, because I got Ghost sick so I will need to be well enough to take care of him. /o\. I’ve been sleeping on the couch since Thursday trying to keep him safe, damn it. I will not be well enough to go to the Super H Mart in time to get Lunar New Years foods which I probably should not have anyway. 😕 Oh well. I will go and get foods for my people, soon, and reschedule all the things that got put aside for this illness. But at least it wasn’t freaking Covid.
Because if my picking up a bug on the outing she insisted on, I think Mom will be okay with not asking me to go out in public for a long while after this. So that’s one silver lining. And we found out at the King Spa that my stepdad might be in the early stages of mental decline? Which is … not good, but we’re going to hop on that soon and see about getting him medicine and lifestyle changes for that. Mom had been thinking that he was just having trouble hearing her since he didn’t have his hearing aids in, but … multiple things don’t add up about how that day went with him. Meow.
Things I figured out during yesterday’s Day of Mourning: apparently I’m not holding much sadness about estrangement from my Dad, and am having WAY MORE sadness about body stuff since it is doing new things. I’m still sad about there being new limits I will have to learn to live inside of, so there is stuff about it that hasn’t been processed yet. Or maybe I’m just waiting for my fears to be confirmed. 😭 Autoimmune disorders are not Pokémon, and I don’t wanna catch ‘em all.
I am going to be so busy the rest of this winter but I am not worrying about that, bc we are practicing self care. By which I mean, after January is over I’m staying off of Facebook, tumblr, Twitter, and basically all social media but DW and my personal Discord server for a month. And I may need to fly out to Missouri to help a friend move this spring sometime? But that has not been determined yet.
The intermittent torticollis in my neck is acting up again, so I get this weird feeling, my body freezes for half a second and then my head snaps to the left. It hurts a little and makes me look possessed, kinda. I should look it up and see if medical science knows what causes that now. *consults the Ducks* oh, probably from injury, then. Hmm. No way of telling which one or what to do about it.
Like so much in my life at the moment, but you know what? I’mma deal. We got this.
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Date: 2023-01-23 02:59 pm (UTC)This is such a fucking mood.
-hugs-
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Date: 2023-01-24 04:22 am (UTC)