links, life stuff, dumb feelings
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flamingswordHey, fellow classics majors! Silphium may not be extinct! Uh ... I need them to breed a cheap varietal, bc I want some.
Action crisis and cost–benefit thinking: A cognitive analysis of a goal-disengagement phase - I'm reading up on the steps your brain takes to stop reinforcing things.
If you have ever been to a Torchy's Tacos here's how to make their queso. And if you have never been, you're doubly welcome!
I love Brandi Carlile in the gayest way possible.
The Never-Not-Broken Goddess and learning to be our most amazing, most broken self. Yeah, I said what I said.
How To Ask Good Questions - "Polling my networks helped me realize how many assumptions I’d been making about the wider world without context, and how those assumptions sometimes calcified into bitterness." - excellently written article that I am having a think about.
In DUH news, everything the diet industry has said for the last 50 years has been wrong, AND THEY KNEW IT AT THE TIME. Fuckers. Trigger warning for dieting/diet culture & injustice perpetrated for profit.
I spent most of today napping, which was glorious. But now my body is doing the temperature fluctuation thing, and I have the sads.
The temps have been swinging 30 degrees some days, and the pressure keeps Doing That Thing, so it’s still a shitty time to be me. Friday I went to my primary care doc to get the specialist referrals for the year (because insurance is stupid) and asked to also be sent to a pain management specialist.
It’s time. I’m not sure what I’m going to do there, other than get a script for daily diclofenac, if I can, but … pain is now reaching the too-distracted-to-work levels for significant chunks of my days, it's taking me longer to do the simple-but-boring computer job bc pain makes me even easier to distract. If I ever need to go back to doing massage as my day job, I would be totally screwed. And I am Having Some Feelings about all of those things, and about how “other people need it more”, and the conflicting impulses of "I don't deserve this" vs "nobody deserves this" vs "why can't this happen to Ted Cruz" etc..
Brainweasels are exhausting. Ugh.
Action crisis and cost–benefit thinking: A cognitive analysis of a goal-disengagement phase - I'm reading up on the steps your brain takes to stop reinforcing things.
If you have ever been to a Torchy's Tacos here's how to make their queso. And if you have never been, you're doubly welcome!
I love Brandi Carlile in the gayest way possible.
The Never-Not-Broken Goddess and learning to be our most amazing, most broken self. Yeah, I said what I said.
How To Ask Good Questions - "Polling my networks helped me realize how many assumptions I’d been making about the wider world without context, and how those assumptions sometimes calcified into bitterness." - excellently written article that I am having a think about.
In DUH news, everything the diet industry has said for the last 50 years has been wrong, AND THEY KNEW IT AT THE TIME. Fuckers. Trigger warning for dieting/diet culture & injustice perpetrated for profit.
I spent most of today napping, which was glorious. But now my body is doing the temperature fluctuation thing, and I have the sads.
The temps have been swinging 30 degrees some days, and the pressure keeps Doing That Thing, so it’s still a shitty time to be me. Friday I went to my primary care doc to get the specialist referrals for the year (because insurance is stupid) and asked to also be sent to a pain management specialist.
It’s time. I’m not sure what I’m going to do there, other than get a script for daily diclofenac, if I can, but … pain is now reaching the too-distracted-to-work levels for significant chunks of my days, it's taking me longer to do the simple-but-boring computer job bc pain makes me even easier to distract. If I ever need to go back to doing massage as my day job, I would be totally screwed. And I am Having Some Feelings about all of those things, and about how “other people need it more”, and the conflicting impulses of "I don't deserve this" vs "nobody deserves this" vs "why can't this happen to Ted Cruz" etc..
Brainweasels are exhausting. Ugh.
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Date: 2023-01-09 01:35 am (UTC)Ugh, it's the fucking tobacco industry all over again! *shakes fist at capitalism*
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Date: 2023-01-09 02:06 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-01-09 01:55 am (UTC)Yeah, the diet industry is shit. Like most fat people, I've dieted off and on and diets don't work. [Diets also flare my OCD and turn into a full-blown eating disorder, so I refuse to diet anymore.] I have so many rants about diets and the bad science that goes into them, and yet doctors still prescribe them and a lot of doctors are still hung up on BMI as opposed to looking at other facets of a person's health, and weight gets used as an excuse to not treat various health problems [including severe menstrual problems, I've been told "lose 50 pounds and your periods will get better" to my face by doctors when I had this kind of bleeding/pain when I was much thinner]. I'll get off my soapbox because I know I'm preaching to the choir, but I'm glad in 2023 people are starting to take it seriously that dieting is a big fucking scam.
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Date: 2023-01-09 02:06 am (UTC)I have pulled this casually-more-informed-than-you tactic once before, and the hardest part was keeping the victory off my face when the endocrinologist backed down about trying to tell me that my thyroid being intermittently slow and my inflammation markers being high could be causing my weight gain. He and his nurses were also diet-pushers, which ugh, and also lol no. And I could tell that he was doing this to not only me but all of his other patients and that activates my RAGE BONER OF JUSTICE. I can fight for myself, but systemic injustices are easier to motivate myself for, still. I'm working on that.
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Date: 2023-01-09 02:14 am (UTC)Re: PREACH
Date: 2023-01-09 02:46 am (UTC)Re: PREACH
Date: 2023-01-09 02:50 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-01-09 12:05 pm (UTC)Oh damn I can't wait to read this one.
Ugh the pressure changes. I expect it's going to be a tough week.
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Date: 2023-01-09 11:02 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-01-09 04:51 pm (UTC)I heard today that NPR has a story coming up about this on All Things Considered this afternoon which I'm very interested in, mainly b/c of all my/our fat friends who have been needlessly shamed and denied necessary medical care over the years.
We've known our whole life that our size has nearly never had anything to do with what we chose to eat, but in our case it's that we were painfully thin for the first 30 years of our life and only really got up to a size our doctor approved of when we were in our 40s. And these days we're having trouble keeping the weight on which again isn't our fault. Ergo people can't long term control their weight via dieting (also apparently not by exercise either nor even a combo of the two. There are better reasons to make dietary choices and exercise like eco-consciousnesses, blood sugar management, enjoyment, getting out in green spaces, etc.)
— Sage
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Date: 2023-01-09 09:46 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-01-09 11:04 pm (UTC)(again-🫂 again)