What makes it kind of worse is that FailBoss is currently being FailBoss because she lost someone close to her, and corporate is trying to push a lot of pointless new rules down the chain at us, and it all winds up at her to implement. If I go in there all guns blazing I know I will feel bad afterward even if I get her to stand up for me.
Also, the part where she grudgingly has to be persuaded to stand up for me itself makes me question her value as an ally. I know that people in the grief process are not their best selves. I also know that when life strips away something essential and breaks you down to pieces, whatever is left standing is you as you really are. You are only the things that can't be taken from you, and if she has not internalized protecting people or at the fucking least letting people protect themselves then her ally ship is based around doing the socially appropriate thing, not the right one.
And it makes me sad that I have to rely on flawed allies in positions of power. That we all do.
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Yay! I win ... something. Best of the worst, I guess.
Date: 2019-02-21 03:14 pm (UTC)Also, the part where she grudgingly has to be persuaded to stand up for me itself makes me question her value as an ally. I know that people in the grief process are not their best selves. I also know that when life strips away something essential and breaks you down to pieces, whatever is left standing is you as you really are. You are only the things that can't be taken from you, and if she has not internalized protecting people or at the fucking least letting people protect themselves then her ally ship is based around doing the socially appropriate thing, not the right one.
And it makes me sad that I have to rely on flawed allies in positions of power. That we all do.