Headaches again and 5wants/5needs
Jun. 15th, 2025 06:18 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
flamingswordYesterday the headache that I’ve had off and on since Wednesday came back at about 11 AM, so I got to go to a yarn swap but not the No Kings protest. I did call my congress-critters though and had my ex husband divert the extra money he wants to send me to bail funds and the ACLU.
Gonna try the 5 Wants / 5 Hidden Needs thing again.
1. I want to skip school this week / be done with school. I feel a lot of dread about the coming 2 weeks. I know I get a week off school for 4th of July summer break. But is that going to be enough to quell these presentiments of doom? I need it to be enough.
2. I want to stop having headaches. I need to feel like my body is capable, even when it’s not, to be able to mask well enough for school. Which is part of the reason I don’t want to go.
3. I want to feel like I’m doing good in the world. I’m tired of working on the same 6 people and not even getting to address what issues they have because we’re not learning new stuff that I’m interested in, nor doing the kind of focused work that addresses long held patterns of tension in the body. I need to fix things and help people. But we’re not there yet in classes.
4. I want to stay home and knit and do arts and crafts where I don’t have to drive 35-40 minutes with a headache. What I need is probably more creative time and time spent not doing schooling and homework, a work/life balance, and possibly to cry from ongoing stress.
5. I want to get a million hugs fromgenderjumper when they pass through this state on their way back from a work road trip to New York. I want couch cuddles and deep conversations and naps together, as unlikely as that is, bc she and Neurospicy Networking will only be passing through for a short time. What I need is to have a community around me, and I don’t want to build one of those here. It would be mercenary and unfair to move away after using someone to fill my loneliness for a year. That doesn’t sound like a healthy friendship.
Gonna try the 5 Wants / 5 Hidden Needs thing again.
1. I want to skip school this week / be done with school. I feel a lot of dread about the coming 2 weeks. I know I get a week off school for 4th of July summer break. But is that going to be enough to quell these presentiments of doom? I need it to be enough.
2. I want to stop having headaches. I need to feel like my body is capable, even when it’s not, to be able to mask well enough for school. Which is part of the reason I don’t want to go.
3. I want to feel like I’m doing good in the world. I’m tired of working on the same 6 people and not even getting to address what issues they have because we’re not learning new stuff that I’m interested in, nor doing the kind of focused work that addresses long held patterns of tension in the body. I need to fix things and help people. But we’re not there yet in classes.
4. I want to stay home and knit and do arts and crafts where I don’t have to drive 35-40 minutes with a headache. What I need is probably more creative time and time spent not doing schooling and homework, a work/life balance, and possibly to cry from ongoing stress.
5. I want to get a million hugs from
genderjumper when they pass through this state on their way back from a work road trip to New York. I want couch cuddles and deep conversations and naps together, as unlikely as that is, bc she and Neurospicy Networking will only be passing through for a short time. What I need is to have a community around me, and I don’t want to build one of those here. It would be mercenary and unfair to move away after using someone to fill my loneliness for a year. That doesn’t sound like a healthy friendship.