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flamingsword) wrote2023-04-19 02:48 pm
flamingsword) wrote2023-04-19 02:48 pm
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Messy feelings about stuff
Meow. Time to drop a bomb, I guess? Ghost’s and my marriage may not be going to hit its 13th anniversary this May. I’m not sure what’s going on, but he thinks we will be able to change over from an apparently-though-not-to-me strained romantic relationship to a healthy living-together friendship. I am not sure I believe him about this.
I think we will be able to finish out most of our lease together, though I am not sure how rapidly or even whether we will evolve to the point of not wanting to live together. I am having the occasional moment of Big Feelings but I am mostly not feeling much yet. It will get worse later, but I have received multiple offers of emotional support, so my community are providing care for me. I kind of worry about Ghost since he has all of two people as his community and a four person family, none of whom have experienced his particular situation. But then, I guess I should probably detach from those worries somewhat if we’re going to be just friends. Meow.
You can ask questions, although I may not know answers yet. 🫂🫂🫂
I think we will be able to finish out most of our lease together, though I am not sure how rapidly or even whether we will evolve to the point of not wanting to live together. I am having the occasional moment of Big Feelings but I am mostly not feeling much yet. It will get worse later, but I have received multiple offers of emotional support, so my community are providing care for me. I kind of worry about Ghost since he has all of two people as his community and a four person family, none of whom have experienced his particular situation. But then, I guess I should probably detach from those worries somewhat if we’re going to be just friends. Meow.
You can ask questions, although I may not know answers yet. 🫂🫂🫂
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I have no platitudes, and tend to think platitudes are bullshit anyway. I will give you no false promises that this gets "easier with time" [you don't need my "no, time doesn't heal all wounds" rant right now]. But if you need a shoulder and someone to just listen, my e-mail is open.
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