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flamingsword) wrote2024-08-19 09:45 pm
flamingsword) wrote2024-08-19 09:45 pm
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(The AC is still on the fritz and it is 83 degrees in here rn. Please forgive my brain for having a somewhat perma-fried grasp of logic and grammar until this is fixed.)
I have been listening to a lot of Taylor Swift’s most recent two albums, and she makes a cracked but uncommonly accessible truth-teller. You’re On Your Own, Kid is a masterful take on jilted love, and the freedom that acceptance of it brings. It’s not really relevant to my personal situation, which is maybe why my brain is taking refuge in it. I can analyze things outside my own life as though they are not tense, stressful, strained.
I had a slice of delta 8 gummy the other night which didn’t fix anything, and a glass of wine tonight since I’m all out of the muscle relaxant that I used to take to not tense up in my sleep. If this doesn’t work then I’m not sure what else I can try except valerian root, which I will take but man do I hate the smell of it.
But I need restful sleep, and I haven’t been getting it. Meow. Maybe it’s time to make myself cry from just … stress? I don’t know how to do that but I know that people do it, it’s a real thing.
If you have ideas or suggestions that aren’t to cut my losses and run, which is what my fear is telling me, then I am at home for hearing other solutions.
I have been listening to a lot of Taylor Swift’s most recent two albums, and she makes a cracked but uncommonly accessible truth-teller. You’re On Your Own, Kid is a masterful take on jilted love, and the freedom that acceptance of it brings. It’s not really relevant to my personal situation, which is maybe why my brain is taking refuge in it. I can analyze things outside my own life as though they are not tense, stressful, strained.
I had a slice of delta 8 gummy the other night which didn’t fix anything, and a glass of wine tonight since I’m all out of the muscle relaxant that I used to take to not tense up in my sleep. If this doesn’t work then I’m not sure what else I can try except valerian root, which I will take but man do I hate the smell of it.
But I need restful sleep, and I haven’t been getting it. Meow. Maybe it’s time to make myself cry from just … stress? I don’t know how to do that but I know that people do it, it’s a real thing.
If you have ideas or suggestions that aren’t to cut my losses and run, which is what my fear is telling me, then I am at home for hearing other solutions.
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The AC is now re-freon’ed and it is finally like 77 degrees in here, which I can deal with. I’m going to take some valerian tonight and see you tomorrow, if you still want to give me stuff.
Hopefully the rest of my problems get dealt with in due time.
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Any particular books/songs etc that always make you cry? You'd probably know if there were, I guess...
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As an apology, have a thing that reliably makes me cry, the story of that fateful night when the Titanic was sinking with no known ships nearby enough to save anyone ... and the captain and crew and passengers of the RMS Carpathia decided NOT TODAY MOTHERFUCKERS. https://www.tumblr.com/mylordshesacactus/170401018158/please-make-a-post-about-the-story-of-the-rms
Fuck, it gets me every time.