Yeah. You know how when you’re in the feeling-someone-out stage of a relationship, and you’re either not dating yet / have only had a few real conversations about it, and they lose momentum and things just fizzle out? You know how that’s sad and kind of feels rejection-y but is generally not that bad? But the longer something goes on, and the more invested you are, and the better you know the person, the more any future rejections feel personal and crushing? That’s where my feelings keep going.

I’m trying to dip my toes into the water of my feelings every so often just to stay connected to myself and not get surprised by my own emotions. It’s just unpleasantly sad and raw at the moment.