I definitely give off weirdo vibes, and used to not know how to interact with humans in their native forms of communication. So the old friend-dumpings, I know what the dumping was about, even if they often ghosted me and never told me the specifics. But the current friend dumping was more about someone who has been in my social space for seven years, and apparently still didn’t see me / know me? Believed her own projections about me instead of asking me about stuff? Or asking any of our mutual friends, even? IDK. She can keep her closure to her dumping-ass self.

I want there to be an easy way to make my brain not be so reactive when I feel judged harshly, but I don’t know what the tactics and steps to healing for this are. Do I write cathartic letters to all of the people who dumped me? Bc that’s a lot of people and I don’t even remember all of them. My memory is not great Bc of the PTSD from my adolescence, and I got friend-dumped pretty regularly between 4 and maybe 25? But none of that gives me any real insight into how to fix this current mess in my head.

I will be spending tomorrow doing research since I dislocated my collarbone earlier this evening and shouldn’t do crafting for a while.